TheKnowledge1814

Hi, all. I'm struggling, and this is one of those moments where speaking into the void is a lifeline.
          
          I hate what cancer is doing to my family. I am trying very hard to get back to writing and reading, but I am struggling to focus. I am sorry for the multiple dips in and out of the Wattpad universe that I've had over the years, but I keep getting punched in the gut by life. And while I am grateful that I always receive the blessing of some kind of recovery, today I am tired, I have hit my ceiling, and I am sick of feeling like everything is too much.
          
          I try to put out positivity when I feel it, and I hope that it will return to me at some point, but right now I am not in that place. I apologize for that too.
          
          I hope everyone reading this is okay. If you have good news or something, feel free to share. I'd love to hear if someone else is making progress on something, anything. I need the hope. If you're struggling too, though, you could respond about that if you like. I'll send you my very best plus my prayers.
          
          That concludes this very strange message.
          
          Sincerely,
          
          TK1814

Earlier this month, severe illness struck the heart of my family yet again. As a result, rather than attempt to get further ahead with JTL (after finishing several scheduled activities well in advance), I decided that I will stick to my original plans for when I start drafting and subsequently publishing, which will not start for several more weeks.
          
          This is a painfully difficult time for me right now, for that reason alone, but I am not immune to other challenges, larger in scope, and I am aware that the same is true for many, if not most, others. I hope you all are taking care of yourselves, and I send prayers, love, and blessings. ❤
          
          TK1814

Hello dear,
          Hope you're doing good.
          Please checkout my latest story 'How to be yours' and share your thoughts in comments and show you support by liking the chapters.
          If you loved the story please share it with your friends.
          Thank you
          Yuna Tishi♡

I'm ahead of schedule with JTL's prep work goals, which means that the active drafting I thought would restart in May can actually restart in March. I am both exceedingly grateful and slightly terrified. On the other hand, I totally missed my reading goals for February, thanks to life being life and altering my limited free time. Oh well. A new month means that I can try again, and I really want to succeed.
          
          I hope everyone else's writing and reading goals are progressing well. I also wish everyone the best in their non-writing lives. If you don't hear this anywhere else, please know that someone in the world needs you and your voice ❤.
          
          Love,
          
          TK1814

@starrchiild Lol, and thank you ❤. I'm planning to deliberately create bridges that don't need to exist after I finish JTL and the zero draft of my current original fiction piece. (In other words, I'm going to play around with a bunch of random writing prompts this summer and see where they take me. Sometimes, I just need to play in the sandbox, if that makes sense. I've gotten some of my favorite ideas that way. ❤)

@ShonaShaniece Thank you for the support ❤, and I will/am. I usually can't stand doing things out of order myself, but writing JTL doesn't always feel linear. Sometimes, I think of it like a patchwork quilt (my prose + P's lyrics/unfinished GB scripts from '87 = something lol). I was struggling so much trying to go through my usual process with it, so I figured it was time to start experimenting.

This January, I tried something different. I did free-writes for 'Journey to Love' every day, and now have over 20000 words to show for it ❤. I know from my outline where to slot those slices in, and my goal for February is to get the remaining sections of the source material typed up so I can facilitate my projected three-month process of stitching it all together.
          
          I've been so happy reacquainting myself with the primary and secondary characters, and so glad to dig deeper into my versions of them. Both they and the overall story world are rounding out in a way I was afraid I wouldn't be able to pull off, and for that I'm so grateful.
          
          Long story short: Progress!
          
          In other news: I want to get back to reading on Wattpad in February, and I know just where to start @ShonaShaniece and @starrchiild ❤. I'm ready to make this a year of finishing things (lol, but also not joking . . .).

Happy holidays to everyone who observes! ❤ I wish you love, safety, health, rest, and peace.

My apologies to anyone who's still hanging with me on this page, only to come up empty. Depression keeps telling me to check out, so I'm fighting to keep my head above water right now. I feel like I've been fighting the same battle for years, only to feel new attacks from different fronts. I might delete this message later . . . I feel like I'm over-sharing. I just feel so guilty that I haven't finished the last incomplete story I chose to upload here, and that I haven't been around to support people like I should. 
          
          I believe strongly in supporting other writers, and yet this war with my brain and my circumstances eats at me until all that's left feels like a never-ending tiredness.
          
          Anyway, I hope that all of you are getting what you need to keep going wherever you are. ❤ I don't mean to be a downer, I just felt like I needed to explain myself (and maybe I don't, but I'm really not in the frame of mind to help myself figure it out; the simplest decisions tie me in knots these days).

Am I re-editing things I've already written and reviewed to help me get (creatively) unstuck? I sure am.
          
          To whoever's comfortable answering: What do you do to ease yourself back into your flow?