TheLostAntagonist

To all the readers who will see this. 
          	
          	Perhaps it's my time to go. I've been writing fan fictions for about six to eight years. I think I might be getting too old for this. I've been writing on here since middle school. I've lost my spark over time and my writing hasn't been what it could be, as it is I haven't written anything in months. I know that was my signature, the disappearing act and them posting in mass sums. This was my outlet for stress and such, to let out my steam in works of fiction with characters I could relate to and making them go through fictional scenarios I would think of. 
          	
          	I struggle with mental health more often than not. Though I've been blessed to not go through things others have, my mental state declines over fake scenarios and now I wonder greatly how I managed to get all this done. I sink rather than swim even in situations all it would take is for me to flail my legs. Sometimes things just fade. Fan fictions have been a hyperfixation of mine for so long and it empties me to realize maybe it's time to let go. Maybe it's because it doesn't have a hyperfixation to feed it. I don't know. All I know is the Murder Drones fixation has faded and has been replaced with Fallout. 
          	
          	Maybe I may write about that. I'm not sure. I hardly have the time anymore and as it stands I put so much mentally into relationships I don't even think about fanfictions during them. As I think about life or maybe rather just getting through the daily without slinking into darkness I don't think about Wattpad too often.
          	
          	For now, this is goodbye. Look out for me in comments, for responses. Thank you to the people who have stuck around for so long, and may your head rest softly when you sleep tonight and your dreams be of silken clouds of comfort.
          	
          	-TLA

GG_mdfan

@TheLostAntagonist Do whatever feels right to you, thinking of your own health and well being is important. I really enjoy your storys and i read them over and over again i will continue reading them again and again. I will be kind of sad that theres nothing new but if you are happy its all that really counts. So dont worry abouth it 
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xx_xyrielle

@TheLostAntagonist dw about it!! I understand what it feels to struggle w mental health and lose interest or ur spark in writing, and it is hard. But thank you for making every murder drones oneshot chapters tho!! I really enjoyed reading them! I am thankful for you making them, trustt- but srs, hope ur okayy, live a great life!! 
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TheLostAntagonist

To all the readers who will see this. 
          
          Perhaps it's my time to go. I've been writing fan fictions for about six to eight years. I think I might be getting too old for this. I've been writing on here since middle school. I've lost my spark over time and my writing hasn't been what it could be, as it is I haven't written anything in months. I know that was my signature, the disappearing act and them posting in mass sums. This was my outlet for stress and such, to let out my steam in works of fiction with characters I could relate to and making them go through fictional scenarios I would think of. 
          
          I struggle with mental health more often than not. Though I've been blessed to not go through things others have, my mental state declines over fake scenarios and now I wonder greatly how I managed to get all this done. I sink rather than swim even in situations all it would take is for me to flail my legs. Sometimes things just fade. Fan fictions have been a hyperfixation of mine for so long and it empties me to realize maybe it's time to let go. Maybe it's because it doesn't have a hyperfixation to feed it. I don't know. All I know is the Murder Drones fixation has faded and has been replaced with Fallout. 
          
          Maybe I may write about that. I'm not sure. I hardly have the time anymore and as it stands I put so much mentally into relationships I don't even think about fanfictions during them. As I think about life or maybe rather just getting through the daily without slinking into darkness I don't think about Wattpad too often.
          
          For now, this is goodbye. Look out for me in comments, for responses. Thank you to the people who have stuck around for so long, and may your head rest softly when you sleep tonight and your dreams be of silken clouds of comfort.
          
          -TLA

GG_mdfan

@TheLostAntagonist Do whatever feels right to you, thinking of your own health and well being is important. I really enjoy your storys and i read them over and over again i will continue reading them again and again. I will be kind of sad that theres nothing new but if you are happy its all that really counts. So dont worry abouth it 
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xx_xyrielle

@TheLostAntagonist dw about it!! I understand what it feels to struggle w mental health and lose interest or ur spark in writing, and it is hard. But thank you for making every murder drones oneshot chapters tho!! I really enjoyed reading them! I am thankful for you making them, trustt- but srs, hope ur okayy, live a great life!! 
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thebookwacher

You got the Hot Potato! Pass the potato to 15 of your friends in 8 days or else you will get extremely bad luck. (No pass backs, just copy and paste and send to your friends). This started in Walthamstow, London, try to spread it around the world.
          
          Do not be the one to stop this chain and end this...
          
          GO!

TheLostAntagonist

Hello my fledglings! Sorry I've been so inactive, but if you read my update in my Murder Drones one shot you'll know I've been busy with a new relationship and I haven't had much time to write. I've been picking up what remnants I have of what could be considered my life and I have really loved spending a lot of time with my partners, getting to know them better, and them getting to know me better. I have nothing but genuine love for them and they've helped me so much already mentally, I just haven't had the time to write because it's still a new relationship and everything is still falling into place. They let me talk about my interests without seeming disinterested and we watch shows and play games together. 
          
          So yes, I've been quite distracted recently, but I'm still writing in small doses whenever I have the free time and mindset. But for now I am rather quiet because I've finally found a good, healthy relationship that I will remember for the rest of my life. Finding love right now was hard with everything going on in the world, but I'm so grateful I have. 
          
          So this is me catching you all up, sorry again for being so inactive. Just know the Murder Drones one shots will still be coming in, just slower as my hyperfixation has also mellowed itself to an interest rather than hyperfocus. 
          
          Thank you all for sticking around, my fledglings. 
          
          -TLA

TheLostAntagonist

@Pop3366 of course not fledgling, just been busy :)
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Pop3366

@TheLostAntagonist I  hope you have great time, I hope they make you happy and that you take care of each other. 
            commented on one of your stories of murder drones. I hope you will answer me in boring detail ⏳
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TheLostAntagonist

@redsonn @GG_mdfan thank you so much for understanding :)
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TheLostAntagonist

How does one respond when an author of a story you read and really enjoy follows you?... Just... just curious... (I'm freaking TF out omg omg omg)

TheLostAntagonist

@GothicWarLoreGoddess OH MY GOD \⁠(⁠°⁠o⁠°⁠)⁠/
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GothicWarLoreGoddess

@TheLostAntagonist  You're oneshots are really good btw!  Keep up the good work  ^^
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TheLostAntagonist

Fledglings, I must inform that currently my mental state is not the best, so my one shots for the MD one shot book will be slower for a while. I will not divulge into my worries and struggles but just know I need a bit more time to think while writing. Progress will be slow, and I'll try to work on the oneshots but I felt I should inform you'd know why I've been posting less and spending more time on them. 
          
          -TLA

GG_mdfan

@TheLostAntagonist its ok i will read all the other stories again then hope you ate better soon :) (btw loved the last nuti story ya released :3)
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TheLostAntagonist

Have you drank water? Have you eat? ಠ⁠︵⁠ಠ

GG_mdfan

@TheLostAntagonist Like Wood and Lemon and Kind of Like wet Dog...
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TheLostAntagonist

@GG_mdfan Valid, tell me how it tasted
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GG_mdfan

@TheLostAntagonist i ate a lemon tree :3
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