TheLostAntagonist
To all the readers who will see this.
Perhaps it's my time to go. I've been writing fan fictions for about six to eight years. I think I might be getting too old for this. I've been writing on here since middle school. I've lost my spark over time and my writing hasn't been what it could be, as it is I haven't written anything in months. I know that was my signature, the disappearing act and them posting in mass sums. This was my outlet for stress and such, to let out my steam in works of fiction with characters I could relate to and making them go through fictional scenarios I would think of.
I struggle with mental health more often than not. Though I've been blessed to not go through things others have, my mental state declines over fake scenarios and now I wonder greatly how I managed to get all this done. I sink rather than swim even in situations all it would take is for me to flail my legs. Sometimes things just fade. Fan fictions have been a hyperfixation of mine for so long and it empties me to realize maybe it's time to let go. Maybe it's because it doesn't have a hyperfixation to feed it. I don't know. All I know is the Murder Drones fixation has faded and has been replaced with Fallout.
Maybe I may write about that. I'm not sure. I hardly have the time anymore and as it stands I put so much mentally into relationships I don't even think about fanfictions during them. As I think about life or maybe rather just getting through the daily without slinking into darkness I don't think about Wattpad too often.
For now, this is goodbye. Look out for me in comments, for responses. Thank you to the people who have stuck around for so long, and may your head rest softly when you sleep tonight and your dreams be of silken clouds of comfort.
-TLA
GG_mdfan
@TheLostAntagonist Do whatever feels right to you, thinking of your own health and well being is important. I really enjoy your storys and i read them over and over again i will continue reading them again and again. I will be kind of sad that theres nothing new but if you are happy its all that really counts. So dont worry abouth it
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xx_xyrielle
@TheLostAntagonist dw about it!! I understand what it feels to struggle w mental health and lose interest or ur spark in writing, and it is hard. But thank you for making every murder drones oneshot chapters tho!! I really enjoyed reading them! I am thankful for you making them, trustt- but srs, hope ur okayy, live a great life!!
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