Joy_angie
Thank you for following me(^ω^).
TheMadPoetGold
TheMadPoetGold
Bad day. Bad panic attack. Slight breakdown. Wrote a poem.
Hope you’re all okay.
https://www.wattpad.com/1602239164-satellite-splinters-of-day
TheMadPoetGold
@Polllardii thank you and you as well. had a talk with my friend, and i want to catch this early on before it gets worse again (pretty much diagnosed for life with this), like always, so i think im going to book some therapy. my friend also made me promise to be more open with her, and this is almost strange because ive never had a friend who genuinely wanted to be there for me (there’s this misconception that no one wants the depressed friend, or the friend that gets a little off her rocker sometimes, or just has bad days).
Polllardii
@TheMadPoetGold - Sorry you had a very bad day, I do hope your health improves and you are able to rise above it. I will say a little prayer. Try not to thing negatively as it doesn't help. Say positive things to yourself. (Well, you know this already don't you? Easy to say, but not so easy to do.)
TheMadPoetGold
Shout-out to The Nile Awards! Genres range from fan fiction and thriller, to YA and short story. Super easy rules to follow. Go check it out!
https://www.wattpad.com/story/406058054-the-nile-awards
TheMadPoetGold
"I am among a symphony
of stars, and the waves that
eat and ebb at the shore."
Just found a poem I wrote randomly in a journal a few months ago sitting at the lake. Enjoy!
https://www.wattpad.com/1584547337-satellite-the-truth-of-the-sky
TheMadPoetGold
hi dearies! how y’all doing? new poem, Ache in the Bones.
hope life is kind.
https://www.wattpad.com/1599559016-satellite-ache-in-the-bones
TheMadPoetGold
chapter two for my starving artists. meet esther, the star.
https://www.wattpad.com/story/404821685-to-catch-a-cloud
TheMadPoetGold
ang mensaheng ito ay maaaring nakaksakit
new book?
It was 1am and yes, I was scrolling, when I suddenly sat up ramrod straight and a story, these vivid fucking characters, just started burning deep in my chest––I had to get it all down (along with some thoughtful research).
And yes, one of the main characters is Senegalese. I am not Senegalese, I had a French teacher from Senegal and she always spoke so beautifully about her culture, so I tried to do Wolof some justice. If I've gotten anything wrong, or you have any way I could dive deeper / improve anything any better, please do not hesitate to reach out, I always love to learn more.
So, here's the first chapter. Let me know if this is something I should continue. If so, I've got some wicked plans (wait 'til you meet the other girl).
https://www.wattpad.com/story/404821685-to-catch-a-cloud
TheMadPoetGold
you ever wonder if you wrote better when you were severely depressed? just me? 'kay.
i'm currently blasting a well-mixed solution of mind-numbing sabbath and zeppelin. picture frames shaking. neighbours can suck it.
physics, how i love you, adore you, but O, how you detest my existence.
TheMadPoetGold
@frayrays lol if what you are insinuating is that i am mentally ill then yes, very much so haha. my imagination is also always super vivid, from a young age i could always close my eyes and see the buildings peel down in strips, doors grow and monsters creeping their hands out, stuff like that. i also have synesthesia, in which music becomes all these colours and patterns, and when i feel emotions deeply they also become colour and texture, especially when i get a little manic (i feel like I’m breathing pink and orange and blue bubbles and it just gets so bright like it physically hurts if that makes sense?). I’m currently studying sciences (deep endless love for physics and quantum mechanics) as i find it grounds me better in reality.
frayrays
@TheMadPoetGold that's why your poems are so good. I still have to read your stories but I'm not reading anything yet. Eye problems.
TheMadPoetGold
hello fellow creatures.
lately, my mind's been stuck in the past. I wake up and I'm back, thinking I'm in high school again, thinking I'm waking up to pain, that I've been living a dream. and I've been angry, too. at myself. because i'm in a place completely different. with friends, friends who aren't just nice, but kind. to me. and yet my mind says horrible things, that i know aren't true, and yet it's there.
and then i think about those who weren't as nice. and i wonder if they think about me.
anyways. i'm ok. just tired.
new poem: the intergalactic search for kindness.
enjoy some bowie, as well.
https://www.wattpad.com/1589770844-satellite-the-intergalactic-search-for-kindness
eternal_solace
@TheMadPoetGold i think you've penned down the feeling exactly. it does feel surreal. i have to keep reminding myself that there are paths people take that i still don't know about because of my own experiences. emotional whiplash, really. but i'm glad you're in a better place now. i don't think those mindsets will ever disappear, but rather just fray a little on the edge of our minds. hopefully one day we can put those sorts of thoughts out of the "instinct" box and into the "just another option" box. <3
Nyhterides
@TheMadPoetGold I think kids in jr high and high school can be mean because they're scared, think their untouchable, etc. Then university or work life happens and you realise (well, most people) that you're all in the same box. That's how I see it. I'm glad you're enjoying where you are now. The past will fade untill it's a think you barely see. Sending hugs!
TheMadPoetGold
Hello hello hello!
Two new poems. One I spent the last two weeks slowly writing. The second a delicious little thing I wrote today on the bus in preparation for Halloween.
What are y'all going as for Halloween? I am Daphne and my friend is Velma. I got this vintage bright lime green floral jumpsuit and purple tights and a gorgeous little green and purple scarf as either a necktie, or a dramatic disguise. Also, I dyed my hair pink! I feel like Jem and the holograms <3
https://www.wattpad.com/story/388282716-satellite
Nyhterides
@TheMadPoetGold have a wonderful Halloween! We don't really celebrate it here, not like North America, unfortunately. They have some face painting, pumpkin carving, kids' stuff mostly.