@TheManuchrome
Hey! How are you doing lately?? I mean I know you're active cuz your message board is updated frequently, but I'm just checking in!! (Also waiting for an update on your rant book–)
@thesparkwithin Aeyy! Thanks for checking in on me. I'm busy with my semester exams which will get over on 29th April. I don't think I'll be able to give any updates till my exams over. Its hard being sarcastic when you are stressed.
I really, really hate how awful I am in regards to keeping in contact with others.
I want healthy and fulfilling relationships with my friends, but it's very hard for me to wholly invest myself.
I want to talk to them, but it's difficult for me to muster the energy to do so sometimes.
I want to hang out with them, but isolation also sounds nice right now.
I'll read their texts, but I'm not necessarily in the mood to reply at the moment.
Then I feel anxious, attempting to reach out when I do have the energy and I am in a good mood because I feel like I pushed them away and they dislike me now, so I usually remain isolated.
I feel selfish because of it.
And I feel like a bad friend.
@pranavitummarakoti @lilac_g @HaSh_browwn @thesparkwithin I'll keep your suggestion/advice in my mind and try. Try to be a better FRIEND.
@TheManuchrome i think telling your friends that currently you're socialy exhausted is a good way, if they are real friends, they'll understand
I’ve spent my whole life feeling like I’m just not quite enough for anyone, and if I’m being real, I still feel that way today.
It’s like I’m constantly stuck in this cycle of being overlooked.
No one ever seems to choose me first, and I can’t help but obsess over what I’m missing or what’s 'wrong' with me that makes people look right past me.
It feels like no matter how much I improve or how hard I try, there’s always someone else—someone faster, smarter, or more 'exciting'—who steps into the spotlight and gets picked instead of me.
I’ve realized I’m basically the human equivalent of a candle in a drawer; nobody thinks twice about me when things are going great, but the second the power goes out and they’re scared or stuck, suddenly I’m the first thing they’re looking for.
I’m tired of beingthe temporary fix for people who wouldn't give me the time of day if their lights were still on.
@TheManuchrome I can't relate to whole rant but I can to some points * hugs you and comforts you *
Realizing you got more mature than your parents is the worst thing ever.
When you realize, you will have to remain silent and let them be right because they won't accept it any other way.
Realizing that where they stopped growing you had to continue for them.
When you realize that their view of the world is the same no matter what, and that you have to let them win the argument.
That anything you say is nothing but a kid who knows nothing to them.
I'm not mature because I want to be, I'm mature because someone has to be.
@TheManuchrome Yes yrrr....Yes !! There are so many things about which me and my parents don't have the same view..but whenever I put that in front of them, they start blaming me for the mentality I have ordered the way I SEE WORLD. I AM JUST SO FED UP And now I have decided to become that kind of a parent with whom my kids will be comfortable enough to express their views and ideologies.
@TheManuchrome THISSSSS LITERALLY GOING THROUGH THIS PHASE SINCE THE PAST SIX MONTHS I STOPPED ARGUING. JUST SILENTLY ACCEPTING
Beige was getting boring, so I’m in my pink and green era now.
We'll see how long this lasts before I find a new obsession!
It seriously sucks when you’re out here giving someone your absolute all like, 100% of your energy, time, and heart and they don’t even acknowledge it.
I’m not even talking about them doing the same for me, though that would be nice; it’s the fact that they act like it’s just expected.
It’s exhausting to go above and beyond for someone who treats your effort like it’s nothing.
@thesparkwithin Fr. They forget everything I did for them but remembers enough to taunt me about the things or situation I couldn't help. Sometimes the guilt of not being enough is so loud that I forget how many times I tried.
I read this theory and thought to share it with you guys.
Decision are of three types :-
Hats
Haircuts
Tattoos
Most decisions are like hats. Try one and if you don't like it, put it back and try another. The cost of a mistake is low, so move quickly and try a bunch of hats.
Some decisions are like haircuts. You can fix a bad one, but it won't be quick and you might feel foolish for a while. That said, don't be scared of a bad haircut. Trying something new is usually a risk worth taking. If it doesn't work out, by this time next year you will have moved on and so will everyone else.
A few decisions are like tattoos. Once you make them, you have to live with them. Some mistakes are irreversible. Maybe you'll move on for a moment, but then you'll glance in the mirror and be reminded of that choice all over again. Even years later, the decision leaves a mark. When you're dealing with an irreversible choice, move slowly and think carefully.
@TheManuchrome [not to be a killjoy, but tattoos are removable?] And I do agree to some extent. Yes, some choices are irreversible BUT you can do stuff to compensate the loss if they choice made was TRULY made by YOU only (and not by your parents or someone else.) atleast, till the age i’ve lived, i’ve experienced that much. But I agree with the hats and haircuts thing!
@TheManuchrome .. That's true . Taking a decision is often very hard .. there are some decisions as u mentioned like hats and haircuts .. which may be reversible .. but tatto the biggest decision, the life changing one is irreversible.. Hence it needs deeper thinking before jumping into an action because once u get it done there is no going back .
Hey thanks for your recommendation on my account.. the rant book had really fun discussions.. will read it and drop comments.
Also, would love you to try my books as well, i can assure you non existence of such cliche you mentioned! :-)
Anyway, thanks for reaching out! ✿
@augustsanity I'll be waiting for your comments. I would definitely check your books out once I'm free from my exams. <3
One of the saddest things in life is that you'll never fully know how loved you truly are.
How your mom memorised your tiny hands when you were a baby.
How someone plays a certain song because it reminds them of you.
How a stranger quietly admires the way you carry yourself.
How someone cried over you in a moment you never knew about.
How carefully someone picked a gift, hoping it would make you smile.
How someone from your past still searches your name sometimes.
"There is so much love happening behind the scenes & you're unaware of most of it....."
Guys, I really need some help with hair fall.
Honestly, I’ve been losing way too much hair for like a year now.
I actually saw a doctor about it, and she prescribed this oil to use for three months.
Things were looking good during those three months and for a couple of months after.
But now? It’s starting all over again.
I’ve tried a ton of different things, but literally nothing is helping.
It’s honestly getting super stressful to deal with at this point.
If any of you have a solution that actually works, please let me know.
@TheManuchrome omggggg!!! Ye toh sacchi ghatna pr aadharit hai...I have lost a lot of my hair in past 5 to 6 years, due to stress and hormonal imbalances...rn I am seeing a dermat. And the hairfall is in control too...Use proanagen serum along with Keraglo eva tablets, this combination is best for hairfall. But for actual growth, you have to improve diet and focus on physical health.
@TheManuchrome, I don't have a lot of hair loss, but occasionally it happens because of my frizzy hair. I used Love Beauty and Planet shampoo and conditioner along with Love Beauty and Planet argan oil and lavender hair mask, and I can honestly say that my hair is now more manageable than it was before. I'm not sure if it will work for you, but my experience was positive, so I can only advise you to give it a shot if you'd like. I hope it's useful.