KitKat

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I think you feel like that but other than going with me, have you tried it for yourself? I was only going out of obligation when I was with you. I never meant to get baptized. But something happened. My life spiraled and He caught me. And I know you're probably scoffing at that sentence, but honestly. I think you should try it with an open mind. You're not your parents. But that's all you. Anyways. I have an audition tomorrow so I'm signing off. Good luck buddy. 

Well I wish you the best of luck. And my offer for church is genuine, though I know how you feel about it. 

Did scare the crap out of me as is. I honestly do want to know how your life is spiraling. I want to help. but I just can't right now, both head or help. I don't think I'm strong enough. But I'm glad me telling you that she deserved better did something. I hope it wasn't just you leaving cause you thought that better meant not you. Cause that's not the case. You're a good guy. You just make stupid decisions sometimes. 

Just for my own knowledge. Was it actually you behind me the other day, or just my mind playing tricks? 

Same for you. Idk how you're spiraling, but I hope you can tell me all about it someday. Maybe write your own letters. I forgive you. 

You probably won't do it, but if you change your mind, we'll be at the Saint Mary's Boathouse at 11 this Sunday for Easter. Most other days were at SMU in the Sobeys building. Scotiabank auditorium at 10:30. I'm only dating people from my church now. People with the same ideals as me. I hope you come for yourself though. It makes all the difference. 

You're right, I don't need it. I don't think you understand how hard it's been on me. I only survived because of the church. I finally did it. I got baptized. And in doing so, I had to let go of a guy that I liked and was about to start dating. And it was hard because since I never started dating him, you're still the last person I've loved. But the church has been so helpful. If your life is really spiraling, maybe giving it a try wouldn't hurt. I didn't mean to go back to church. I just went to make sure they knew I was alive, but I felt myself healing. 

Why though? Why say it now? Why purposely find things that I write about you when you know I do it and when you know it hurts you? None of it makes sense. 

Not sure if you guys have read my "An open ended letter to you". These are sort of like "Letters to Matt", but they're just letters in general. Some letters may be to a certain person, some are to myself, some are just emotions I want to post so that you know that if you feel any of those, you're not alone. 
          
          Love you all!
          KitKat