@TheMysteryPerson1X
I think I might just discontinue this account since I'm not really on this account specifically and I kinda forgot I had this so I'd much rather just focus on my stories on my new main so yeah. Sorry to anyone who wants to get updates for my books on here.
For my friends on here. I'm still up to message but don't expect instant replies it would probably be a few months at most before I come and check messages.
TW: self harm mention, abuse, off- ing self mention, vent
i feel like ending it all really. I'm thinking of ghosting everyone here and suffer consequences after. I've had to fight off the urge so many times for years to stay clean on my wrists, legs- sometimes- my face.
When I pour out emotions to friends (online or irl) I'm met with a "You'll be okay." "Its not that big of a deal." Or "your just doing this for attention". Sometimes I crave it and idk if its cuz I was deprived of any love from my mum (or mom for the Americans) and was driven into a depressive state ever since with me trying to get help with them saying I'm "not depressed" and
"doing this for attention" - mum
I have delt with both physical, emotional and verbal abuse and now my only safe heaven, my one true place where I'm happy is gone and my emotions and mental state I'd thrown away out of the window like some peirce of paper. I honestly wonder what my life would be like with an ACTUAL loving family or if I was born in an American family and living life. I've wanted change for 6 years now but I've seen this world become unstable with hate, toxicity and selfishness. It makes me sick.
No one actually cares about me, my mental health or anything about me other than I'm an easy target. Bullies... I've had them. The cause? My skin colour, my race, my beliefs, who knows? I've lost all care to hang onto this pathetic life. I've got no friends in real life who are supportive and comfortin. I tried to be remembered but I guess I won't but.... my name is Maddison lily-grace Tucker and my life was...eventful. I never got help but that could change, I hope. If I get no reply then I know I'm not needed in this life or world for that matter and to that I wish you all a happy life and future
Yours truly :)
I have a new story idea in my mind about my hero academia reader insert who is a vigilante. Literally can’t find no one to help with notes so I’m getting desperate and looking for writters who are good at lore (unlike me) who can help
Advice needed over here!!!:
So I have a friend irl, right? She's more of a stubborn person and likes to fight/ aggressive. She normally hits me and I hit her back and we've been friends for 4 years now I think, and we've had funnies and not so fun times, but...
Recently I have been getting distant because I set boundaries and I tell her that I don't like her taking things out my pockets or don't hit me too hard or stop hitting my arm where I had a vaccine at school once (still did it) even though she knew it would be dangerous,causing a blood clots..
@TheMysteryPerson1X I don't feel theater connection i did when we first became best friends and it saddens me...she gets me riled up sometimes over personal things I can't exactly help and calling me sensitive and disregarding how I feel and stuff, no matter how many times I tell her and she knows when she crosses the line. Just a few weeks ago she told me "you know these a artery on your arm, if you cut along it with a knife you can bleed out." Thought nothing much of it then but at some point I forgot if I did or said anything getting in a type of argument or she carried on but she continued "i can break into your house and do that to you and I'll wear gloves,then clean all the evidence up." Of course I was a bit scared but me being an overthinker and having anxiety, over time I started to freak out. I said one of our friends would let the authorities know and she made them promise to say she was not apart of my murder. It scares me. The thought of dying in my home young while I die slowly and my case possibly never being figured out, it scares me so I kept quiet until yesterday...NO ONE EVEN GAVE A DAMM!? So my question is what do I do? I don't want to unfriend her or anything like that in case and I'm just stuck. I want to move schools but I'm in the best school in my area with the best education (90% graduation rate i think) i do t want to go to a school that keeps me from my good friends or one that could affect my grades/ future, so I'm here asking you all: What do I do?
Just been to a wedding and it wasvery...eventful to say the least so got no time to write since the kids there tuckered me out and stuff
@anime--booknerd I can try and talk on the weekends but I can’t exactly be sure but I can try
Could have updates soon. Just saying
It is 2:57 rn and I’m feeling guilty and freaking out cuz I feel like I left my friend for too long and idk if they mentioned me on their bored and I hope my actions didn’t seem bad T~T
Still on a hiatus
@anime--booknerd oops my mistake it's just that it sounded familiar and me being an overthinker thought it was me lol
@TheMysteryPerson1X XD dude I was talking about another friend I know why ur gone, she just left unannounced
@anime--booknerd I saw your announcement on your board and I thought it was about me but I wasn't sure and I was panicking cuz I felt guilty if it was. But if it wasn't then I apologise and I can delete this if you like
I am now stuck in seld isolation now for ten days because my brother came into contact with another family member who has got covid but did not self isolate and went over to a house that I was at yesterday and the day before...I'm kinda scared because another grandparent, my grandmother and because of my brother. she is niw at risk of dying.
So now I'm stuck isolation with no idea if I have it too..I will try to get stuff published if possible
God news, ok so you might be happy to hear i am no longer on my "break" and am now continuing my Pokèmon reader insert book.
Its my birthday today!!! :3