So i haven't posted on here in a while but i want to now. When i got into this i knew that i might not come out of this in one piece, actually i knew that there was a very good chance that i wouldn't come out of this at all. I knew the consequences when i walked in those doors. I knew the price i might one day have to pay. It is a price that i am not afraid of. I have lost all of those who know me in flesh and blood. My husband lies six feet underground, a white casket cradling him where i used to be. Often i get the question, "what has been the hardest thing you have had to do?" My response. I think often surprised them. The hardest i have had to do was not keeping my spirits up, not taking the medication and not going through chemo or even loosing my legs. No, the hardest thing I have ever had to do was say goodbye to the one person i loved more than anything, more than the world itself. That was the single and most difficult thing i have ever had to do. I may not have long left on this world, but thats alright, thats okay. I have loved more deeply than i ever thought possible, and i have fought the good fight. So its okay. Dont fret or fear. I will be with him, and there is nowhere else i would rather be.