Tecchou/Dazai(Jasper)

Why is life so exhausting?
          
          Were we just created by some sadistic Deity, who just likes to see people suffer?

Bro I just stuttered the worst I've ever stuttered. I don't normally stuttered and if I do it's just my brain not catching up with my mouth and going like ho-how or something but this was like full on almost comedic level stuttering(not to make fun of people that have a stutter), like the kinda stuttering you'd see on TV.
          
          I literally went s-s-s-s-she(or something like that, I have a terrible memory even though it happened like 2 minutes ago T^T)
          
          I don't even know why TwT I was literally just talking normally and then it happened

i js wanna say that ur an amazing person and u deserve the world. there's no particular reason for this, but even if we've never met, i consider u one of my closest friends and idk why
          i really hope ur doing ok, and all's well
          hope if u weren't, this made you feel better
          have a good day <3 ༼ つ ◕_◕ ༽つ

Uhhh i might be panicking just a bit because my mom saw me regressed and she doesn't know I'm an age regresser. Idk if she knows what it is or if she will look up why I was acting like a little child but i'm a bit scared cuz only my partner knows and i'm not exactly ready for anyone else irl to figure that out ^^,

Tw: mentions of su!c!dal thoughts/su!c!de(not me)
          
          please don't report this, i don't want my account sniped T^T  
          
          
          I think I've figured out something about myself. I don't mind being the therapist of my online friend group even if I get nothing in return for my problems cuz them being just a bit better is enough for me.
          
          Cuz I just helped one of my best friends out of a breakdown and then being tempted to break their promise not to try and off themselves for a year and that's the best feeling ever, I got to practically save their life
          
          Cuz I don‘t care about myself but I do care about my friends and I don't know what I would have done if I lost them

@TheOneAndOnlyDazai okay real. I love being the friend that someone can rant to. I had a friend do that for me for a few weeks and I felt so helpful. I won't do that to anyone because I'll always feel like I'm exaggerating or being annoying but I love being ranted to :D

Bro I think I just got my first bot comment on the VERY first chapter of my Fic ideas and W.I.P book and it's actually kinda funny

Random rant:
          
          
          You know what annoys me is when someone has there OC be Pan but then says they lean towards a certain gender cuz I'm just like "THEN THATS NOT A PANSEXUAL!!"
          
          As a Pan myself it's annoying cuz the meaning of Pan is attraction REGARDLESS of gender, a Pansexual person can not lean towards a certain gender cuz then they are not Pan they are Omnisexual which means attraction to all genders but with a preference.
          
          I was Omni for a while before I realized I don't get a shit about gender and I just thought that i was cuz I had only been attracted to one person but then I later found one I'm just Demi-aroace and Pan.
          
          But yeah to anyone that has an OC that's Pan don't make them lean towards a certain gender, if they have a preference or lean to a certain gender just make them Omni cuz that's the actual word for it
          
          
          
          sorry for the random rant, I've just had this on my mind for a bit

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          Apparently we are fostering a dog but I was only just informed 2 minutes ago. And I wasn’t asked if I was ok with it even though I also live in this house.
          
          I mean not that my opinion is very often heard or cared about anyways with stuff anyways
          
          So you know, not that it matters cuz my opinion never matters to them anyways
          
          Yes I like dogs but this dog is also on the smaller side and I don't like small dogs. Also not to mention this dog actually fucking traumatized me by not being fixed and try to show dominance and I saw his *cough cough* thing.
          
          and another problem is that my cat has NEVER seen nor interacted with a dog and I don't know how she'll react and I don't know how the dog will react either so that's fun and anxiety inducing.
          
          
          Sure my sister likes him but did they even think about how I would feel about it, did they not care if I had any feeling too and that I'm human being too
          
          
          and now I'm fucking crying because I get easy hurt and now i’m doubting if they actually care about me or just my sister become they clearly don't care about me and my feelings about this

For the people that wanted the book here's the link to it so you can see - https://www.wattpad.com/story/394506231-jasper%27s-w-i-p-and-fic-ideas