It's a mystery

I hope you can't see this. 
          I hope this is all a mystery to you. 
          I hope you never see this. 
          I hope you the best in the world. 
          I forgot how your voice sounds. 
          That scares me. 
          I forgot how my mom sounded, too. 
          The only difference is that you're still alive.
          I hope you achieve everything you've ever wanted. 
          I hope one day we can sit down and have a proper fight and you can get closure. 
          I hope one day we can sit down and have a drink together. 
          I hope one day I can learn about the new you.
          I hope one day we can be in each other's lives again. 
          I'm better now. I hope you are too-- I think the only thing that ever holds me back is you. 
          I'm about to move overseas, I'm sick, but I want to travel before..
          I'm going to do the states I think before I go. 
          I hope I can see you in Chicago. 
          I hope you never see this. 
          I hope you never know how I feel really. 
          I hope you never know my shame from my freakout. 
          I should of never said those things. 
          I should of just called you. 
          I should of gotten my shit so I could of seen you. 
          I hope you never saw my drunk calls and messages. 
          I hope you drunk call me. 
          I can't stop dreaming about you. Is that because of you? Are you dreaming of me? 
          I hope I never know. 
          I hope you never know. 
          I hope you never read what I write about you. 
          I hope you get so much in life. 
          I hope that you're happy. 
          I hope that you're wealthy and soft. 
          I hope that your compassion exists. 
          I hope that you're kind. 
          I hope that you learned. 
          I hope that you keep growing. 
          I hope that you never forget me. 
          I just want one more talk. 
          One hour in a bar. 
          Common ground. 
          Fuck, I can dream right? 
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          I hope you never see this.