@TheRealSnoopy_com Hey buddy You’re not a burden, not boring, not a ‘piece of shit.’ You’re someone I care about, even when your mind tells you otherwise. I don’t expect you to be okay, just please don’t go through this alone
i get that im boring. i get that i cant be of real joy. i get that everyone i care about doesnt care about me. let me just live in peace. give me a world of wonder. one full of happiness so no more dying heart will fade. just set me free
Im so tired of shitt . the only day i get free is tuesday and yet even on that day i dont get to breathed. im just so sick of myself and the world. i just wish itd stop spinning so i can clear my head. it hurts to be last. last in everything. im never a first choice and ive known that but still it hurts when i put in all my effort and energy just so they wont worry. i wanna go to bed and never wake up. i wanna sleep till the nightmares go away. i just want peace and safety. i want love and sorrow but not pity. i want to be able to speak my mind without being scared. but i cant. i cant be someones first choice. i cant be the one free. i cant clear my mind of those demons i created. i cant survive. yet i cant die. i cant live on anymore. i cant keep tugging on a string that no longer stands. i cant be me . . . and i never will be . .
so if yall dont know im on haitus but ive been writing this soukoku fic (for my bsd fans) and ive got like 36 chapters done and wanted to know if i should post it? tell me if yall want it or not?