Peeps, I've figured it out. That's right, after all this time, I've solved my gender.
For the longest time I've been struggling with my gender identity, and I thought internalized transphobia was the reason I didn't feel trans enough.
I still want to feel pretty sometimes, and even though I'm definitely not a girl, I'm a girl in the way Funtime Foxy is a girl (spoiler alert, he's not, not really).
For those of you who don't know, Funtime Foxy is an animatronic- they technically aren't male or female. They're referred to with both she/her and he/him pronouns in FNAF Sister Location, but he/him is more frequent. They're also part of "Girls'Night" a level in FNAF: Ultimate Custom Night, but since robots have no biological sex, they have no gender assigned at birth and thus can be whatever.
Ugh, this is getting long.
To summarize; I'm a trans guy, and my base gender is male. But I'm gender fluid, so male isn't the only gender I experience. Some of the most common flavors are boy, demiboy, genderqueer, dysphoric blob, Alex Fierro, and Funtime Foxy.
Yes, one of my genders is homicidal robotic fox. Don't ask.