TheSoulessman

Life is hard 

What do I say what do i do 

I just felt cold today I couldn't move and I was angry and felt like I wasn't myself I felt like hurting people but it didn't stop until I got home 

Dear self 
          
          You might be wondering what are you doing why are you going to end it all like this and I will tell you again like every time I cut or wanted to die because I don't belong here I wasn't meant to be born I wasn't meant to be here then we think about who were gonna be leaving behind and then I say they don't want me here to began with there life's will be better if I wasn't here, then you say but what about your mom what's gonna happen to her she will take care of Sophia and Alexis and raise them to be the best kids ever she will have more money and a better life, what about you sisters they will be sad won't they, no they won't they will miss me for a week and then everything will go back to how it was Lexi didn't care that much for me and Sophia just doesn't care in general. Your uncles all of them they must be sad, no wrong again I was too annoying and I should have been more mature it's probably for the best if I die and not be here anymore, ok what about your aunts they won't miss me at all I am he worst nephew to live I don't care and I don't try I need to just die well what about your grandmother, she will be the most hurt she will be the saddest and will morn for weeks and months and not be able to think but it will be the best f I go one less thing for her to be disappointed about right it will hurt losing her first grandson but it will be the best thing for everyone. So I guess you're right no one will care if you go yea then I guess I have no reason to try to stop you goodbye Anthony I loved you very much 

Dear brother 
          
          
          I'm not gonna say your name in this at all because when you read it you will know who this is for
          
          Thank you, thank you for always being there for me for never turning your back even when I did you wrong thank you for always showing you cared and never telling me to go away you're my first friend at this school and will be my last till I die you will be there for me and I know that and we argued and we fought but always stayed there for each other I remember the time I tried to overdose but you calls me and stopped me from doing it you told me something I will never forget "I can't lose someone again I can't lose a family member" you called me family you called me a brother and then it hit me that you need me more than I need you, that time she broke up with me for you and you said sorry I was angry and told you never to talk to me again but you didn't listen because you cared and I said sorry and we were friends again thank you, I'm sorry I couldn't be strong anymore I'm sorry I'm leaving you all alone and with nobody too talk to PROMISE ME PROMISE ME YOU WONT EVER CHANGE EVER PROMISE ME THAT NO MATTER WHAT LIFE DOES TO YOU THAT YOU WILL GET BACK UP AND KEEP PUSHING DON'T DIE DON'T LOSE WIN AND KEEP WINNING MSKE ME PROUD PLEASE. 
          
          I love you so much not just as a friend but as a brother good bye 
          
          
          
          From Anthony 
          

Dear kiley 
          
          Thanks for being there and in sorry I was an asshole to you and everyone else around me I'm sorry I was mean and picked on you all the time you were an awesome friend from day one and will continue being like that don't ever change you are the coolest gender fluid person I know
          
          From Anthony 
          Better known as edge lord