♡Twilight ☭ STARR 🇵🇸★

Today is the day 

I hear music, every time.

Free free 

Loss is such a hard thing to deal with even after all these years, idk how I can make it sometimes. I feel guilty for enjoying my peace when I know I can never see my father again, even if we never gotten along I still miss him. Even if I never liked him I still loved him. I hope he’s not watching over me because I am a disappointment and I’m bringing shame over his house, if he is watching me I hope he feels nothing but numbness so he won’t be disappointed in me.

I can’t for the life of me read 4.5, it makes me cringe so harddd!!! But I wanted to make it mature so I did it :teary_eyed:

Guilt, guilt, guilt.
          
          I’m so tired.
          
          It consumes me.
          
          I need to stop.
          
          I will stop, this time.

Omg I totally forgotttttt!!!! New date? October 9th?

How could I ever forgive myself or ****** I don’t think I can recover from this, I’ve embarrassed myself and it’s all ******’s fault, I’m humiliated.

It had to be done. Wallah.

Lost the one person who loved me unconditionally but it’s for the best.