PATYON KO NIMO? WELL, DILI TIKA PATYON PERO I'LL MAKE SURE I'M GONNA BE BETTER THAN YOU. I'M GONNA HAVE THE BEST THINGS IN THIS WHOLE DERANGED WORLD. I'M GONNA BE BETTER THAN YOU. I'M GONNA BE THE BEST. I'M GONNA BE EVERYTHING I WANT. I'M GONNA BE THE BEST. KEEP THAT IN MIND.
YOU NEVER EVEN LOVED ME. YOU JUST LOVE ME BECAUSE MOMS ARE MADE TO LOVE THEIR KIDS. THAT'S NECESSARY. I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE THERE'S THIS GAP BETWEEN US. IT'S LIKE YOU BUILD UP A BARRIER SO I CAN'T PASS THROUGH YOUR PERSONAL SPACE. YOU'RE NOT CLOSE TO ME. I'M ALWAYS AFRAID OF YOU. I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE EVERY LITTLE THING I DID, I DO, AND WILL DO, MIGHTN'T BE ENOUGH FOR YOU. IT FEELS LIKE YOU'RE ALWAYS JUDGING ME. AND INSTEAD OF NURTURING ME TO BE AS GOOD AS YOU WANT ME TO BE, YOU CRITICIZE ME.
YOU HATE ME SO MUCH. AND I'M SO SORRY I'M NOT AS GOOD AS ANY OF YOUR CHILDREN. I AM SO SORRY BECAUSE I GOT MY ATTITUDE FROM YOU. I AM SO SORRY THAT AT TIMES, I'M NOT LISTENING TO YOU. I AM SO SORRY IF SOMEDAY, I MIGHT NOT THE PERSON I AM PLANNING TO BE. THANK YOU. THANK YOU FOR CRITICIZING ME. THANK YOU BECAUSE YOU CHECK OUT ALL OF MY FLAWS FOR ME. AND BECAUSE OF THAT, I GREW UP WITH A TINY PINCH OF CONFIDENCE IN ME.
I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU TOLD ME THAT WHEN I WAS IN YOUR TUMMY, 5 MONTHS OLD, YOU PLANNED ON ABORTING ME. AND I HATE YOU FOR THAT. I HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T. I HATE YOU BECAUSE I AM HERE TODAY, UNDER YOUR ROOF, LIVING IN THIS HELL. I HATE IT BECAUSE YOU GAVE BIRTH TO THE WORST CHILD IN THIS WHOLE GODDAMNED WORLD.
SORRY IF I'M NOT PERFECT. NEVER WAS, AND NEVER WILL. I PROMISE THAT SOMEDAY, SOMEHOW, I'M NOT THAT 'LITTLE BLACK SHEEP' IN OUR HOUSE. I'LL BE BETTER. WITH OR WITHOUT YOUR HELP. SORRY FOR CAUSING YOU TROUBLE. AND I'M SO SORRY IF DAD FORCED YOU AND RAPED YOU. SORRY, MOM.
