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Since many would like to know, but haven’t listened when I say check the most recent part in my rants/art story, here it is
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Hey guys, I'm just letting you know how I'm doing. I've been diagnosed, and I'm suffering with severe depression and have even had many thoughts of suicide and attempts of self harm. I have no idea when this will get better for me, and hell it may get worse. I do not know.
I do want to say, how fucked up this world is. I cannot even come out to my class as bisexual bc they'll all tell me that I need to choose my sexuality, either I'm Hetero or Lesbian. Stfu. I struggle with how chubby my stomach is and continually suck in and destroy my organs because the beauty standard is to have a slim waist and an hourglass body shape. People tell me to not care what others think and be myself, but BITCH YOU THINK I DON'T TRY??!! I CANNOT FUCKING HELP IT SHE WHISPERED ABOUT ME AND NOW I'M INSECURE. TRUST ME, I WOULD LOVE TO NOT CARE. BUT I DO. DEAL WITH IT.
And fuck, if I was given the option to jump off a bridge into a river with sharp boulders, damn right I would. I actually hate how horrible this society is, and what makes this even better, is that so many people complain too. But do you actually try and do shit about it? Probably would love to, but you can't because we have to live in fear of getting arrested for speaking out. We have to live in fear of speaking our opinions. Fuck freedom of speech at this point, where the hell did it go bc it's not in the room with us.
Sorry, I'm just not alright and really needed to rant but if I told my friends or family they would try and do something but I'm trying to gather the strength to overcome this myself. Not enough people can, and I want to try. To help others who are trying to overcome as well.