The Writings of Spite

What do you mean its nearly been a month already.
          
          I really need to start writing and stop relapsing.

When I made this account nearly two years ago, I thought it was the lowest point my life would ever hit. I had just entered a massive relapse (that I still haven't left.) And everything felt meaningless. I made the account because "everything is pointless anyway. Might as well indulge on what most people think is stupid."
          
          Well get ready for round two, that was child's play. Its so much worse this time around.

The cover art for Wait Mastermind is so old, I desperately need to remake it.

Looking back on old comments I made is honestly so fucking funny. I never had an ounce of shame or forethought about what I said oh my fucking god.

A hurt/comfort fic where one character has bulimia. But instead of healing and recovering like it was nothing, the bulimic character shows the actual symptoms of bulimia and dies from it.
          (Swollen cheeks, bloating, brittle teeth, inability to keep any food down even when not trying to purge, swollen and potentially even ripped organs, the potential for broken ribs, or purging outright stopping their heart.)
          
          I wish people actually portrayed these symptoms instead of acting like all it is, is discarding half ingested food.

I was planning to write this week, but I ended up overdosing on tylenol and aspirin.
          
          Oops.

Tw//Ed topic (light hearted)
          
          I'm tempted to try to write a one-shot in a couple days when I have another fast to do. I've been losing a kg a day, more or less for the past week and a half. And my anorexic brain fog when my intake is lower is absolutely unreal.
          
          I mean, I am genuinely incomprehensible. 
          
          It might be funny. 
          
          Or just boring.
          
          Setting this as an announcement because I genuinely want to hear if this would be funny to read, or just absolutely awful.

I am considering writing a one-shot based on my experience with anorexia. 
          It wouldn't be anything stellar.
          
          Just a quick story, featuring Izuru, that follows my own experiences with the eating disorder. 
          
          I know there is an argument to be made of "izuru is too apathetic to be disordered in that manner."
          
          But if you look at it in a similar way to how mine started, it could be a perfectionism thing. Izuru wakes up after overriding Hajime, sees the body he's stuck with. And just thinks "oh hell no."
          
          I havent written anything in a while. But I want to try to give it a spin, again.

Does anyone have any tips on how to get your entity to stop talking about "Fetus Hinata"?
          
          It won't stop.
          
          Send help.

You're trimonthly reminder that I have not abandonned "Wait Mastermind."
          
          My excuse?
          
          I'm insecure. That's all. I worry about possible mischaracterization. Or otherwise writing in an amateur style. So I've been avoiding it. 
          
          Apologies.