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I'm...terribly sorry to have to say this, but I'm not sure if I can work on only Pet Project as much anymore. My brain has too many ideas. And on top of that....my mind isn't in the best place right now.. Sometimes, I feel as if I, myself, am just...not worth it.
Like I am somehow destroying all of my friendships without realizing. I find my mind burning the feeling of complete and utter uselessness into itself. I find my own voice mentally telling me that I can't help my friends. That I can't help anyone. Not even myself. What hurts is the logical side of my brain, despite telling me that I actually do have a good life with good family and friends and home and everything, it also provides all of the evidence that I cannot help my friends or family emotionally, like they help me.
I...I could rant more, but then it would just be writing down what I hear from my own fucked up thoughts. I'm sorry...
but uhm, well...I'm making another new story...its alright so far. I've implemented a limit to chapter length for consistency, and hopefully it'll help vent some of these feelings.
To whoever stuck around to read all this, I deeply, deeply apologize for the fact you just had to read a wall of my shitty problems. But...Thank you for being with me this long. No matter how far you got in this post, thank you. I'll do my best to keep myself together. Not just for me, not just for my family and friends, but for all of you out there who read my stuff. You all help me much more than you realize.
Sincerely, Xeno.