The_Broken_Girl_786

Wow! I knew that you were angry and stuff but I so didn't see this coming. You know that I am sorry. You know it and you can't even deny it. Please don't. If you seriously understood me even a bit during all those 'dear diary' days, then you would know that this is hard for me. I don't do confrontations. Not like this at least. But I am doing it this time bc I want to put a stop to this childishness now. And bc you left me no choice. You don't want me to message you? You could have just said the word. Ignoring my messages. Sending your peeps to get me to stop. And then going as far as to mute my account? Yes, I am angry (anyone would be) but honestly speaking, I am more hurt than angry. Vey very hurt. But it's nothing new. People always do hurt me so that's no new thing. And I kinda deserved it from you. But don't you think you took it a little too far? Whatever. I'm sorry. Didn't mean to put the blame on you there. I am sending this without thinking. Don't make me regret it (if you know what I mean). I am getting off topic. Ah! What I want to say is that this, this is the last time I am gonna bother you. No more spams from me. I know I said I won't stop till you forgive me but looks like you actually won this one time. Yaay to you. You should go out and celebrate it with a drink or whatever. I am not bitter. Okay, just a little bit but this is genuine. I so hope you read this before ignoring it as well. I was sorry. I apologized. Continuously. I even (tried to) justify. I ignored your friend. But now, I'm sorry. I can't do this. So one last time, I am sincerely sorry for whatever I did that hurt you so much that you went completely out of your way to make me feel so shitty. Thanks for that by the way but there was no need. I had enough people doing that job for me... I am doing it again. I am sorry. Genuinely sorry. Please excuse my bitterness there. I'll miss my dear diary and obviously you as well. Goodbye. This time, for real. :) @knightfury69
          	
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The_Broken_Girl_786

@knightfury69 I tired holding back. I really did but I have to send this. If you think this is me trying to get a response or a rise out of you, then that's not true. Even, I am telling you not to respond to this. But of course, I want you to read this first. There is a lot that I want to say but I won't bc at this point, that won't make much or any difference for that matter. But what I couldn't help but talk about was the first thing you said. I was not trying to act like anything, Ryan. I swear. God knows my apologies and all those thank yous were nothing but sincere and out of my heart. There was nothing else to it. No doing you any favor. No hidden selfish thing. Nothing but just that. A simple gratitude and an apology to show you exactly what I felt. At this point, if you only realize this much- that my apologies were genuine- that would be a lot for me. Please don't reply back bc that's not why I sent this. I might have done a lot of wrong things but for once I wanted to do something right. I'm not sure if this matters at all but I wanted to give this a try. Anyway, I hope someday you realize that I never was acting anything and that my apologies were as sincere as they could get. I'm sorry for this but I couldn't resist putting it out there but I promise there will be nothing more from me. And again, I am sorry. For everything.
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knightfury69

One,don't act like you are doin me any favour by telling me how good I am or that,how sorry you are. If you are making any effort for asking what you want genuinely,that's your choice. I didn't ask for this. 
          	  Two,i am not obliged to be nice or understanding every time. I have my life too. 
          	  Three,I said you were welcome before. I take back my words now,you are not allowed to barge in as you please or whenever you feel like. Frankly,this whole thing about helping you out,was something i knew I should not ever expect anything from you. It was purely selfless.
          	  Four,It was Dylan. When he asked you,you don't need to act more dumb by being bratty ; for asking supersimple thing or that wasn't simple for you coz it wasn't even your real name. Either way,I don't care. You had your chance at  coming clear. Everything expires. So do the diary thang. 
          	  
          	  Five,I know I've been there. But you don't put it out as excuse to everyone coz they might be going thru same and you wouldn't even know. I have seen more life,people and situations than you. If you wanna teach someone two cents,teach yourself to be humble and compassionate with everyone,even with ones who did you wrong or even the ones who stand by your side and who chose to stand by you even when you didn't believe in yourself enough.
          	  
          	  Six,I don't have any grudges. Your time with me just ends here.
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The_Broken_Girl_786

PS A friendly advise Mr. Thread Maker, don't do this to anyone else. Even if they deserve it and worse. Because if they are anything like me, then you should know that the darkness from where we come out, it never actually goes away. Bc once you have been there, you can never see the light again. Not in the same way. The darkness is always there. Lurking behind the shadows. Waiting patiently for just one strike from someone so that it can grab us and yank us back to where we started from. Obviously, it's just a friendly advice... you know if you ever feel like helping a depressed person again.
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The_Broken_Girl_786

Wow! I knew that you were angry and stuff but I so didn't see this coming. You know that I am sorry. You know it and you can't even deny it. Please don't. If you seriously understood me even a bit during all those 'dear diary' days, then you would know that this is hard for me. I don't do confrontations. Not like this at least. But I am doing it this time bc I want to put a stop to this childishness now. And bc you left me no choice. You don't want me to message you? You could have just said the word. Ignoring my messages. Sending your peeps to get me to stop. And then going as far as to mute my account? Yes, I am angry (anyone would be) but honestly speaking, I am more hurt than angry. Vey very hurt. But it's nothing new. People always do hurt me so that's no new thing. And I kinda deserved it from you. But don't you think you took it a little too far? Whatever. I'm sorry. Didn't mean to put the blame on you there. I am sending this without thinking. Don't make me regret it (if you know what I mean). I am getting off topic. Ah! What I want to say is that this, this is the last time I am gonna bother you. No more spams from me. I know I said I won't stop till you forgive me but looks like you actually won this one time. Yaay to you. You should go out and celebrate it with a drink or whatever. I am not bitter. Okay, just a little bit but this is genuine. I so hope you read this before ignoring it as well. I was sorry. I apologized. Continuously. I even (tried to) justify. I ignored your friend. But now, I'm sorry. I can't do this. So one last time, I am sincerely sorry for whatever I did that hurt you so much that you went completely out of your way to make me feel so shitty. Thanks for that by the way but there was no need. I had enough people doing that job for me... I am doing it again. I am sorry. Genuinely sorry. Please excuse my bitterness there. I'll miss my dear diary and obviously you as well. Goodbye. This time, for real. :) @knightfury69
          
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The_Broken_Girl_786

@knightfury69 I tired holding back. I really did but I have to send this. If you think this is me trying to get a response or a rise out of you, then that's not true. Even, I am telling you not to respond to this. But of course, I want you to read this first. There is a lot that I want to say but I won't bc at this point, that won't make much or any difference for that matter. But what I couldn't help but talk about was the first thing you said. I was not trying to act like anything, Ryan. I swear. God knows my apologies and all those thank yous were nothing but sincere and out of my heart. There was nothing else to it. No doing you any favor. No hidden selfish thing. Nothing but just that. A simple gratitude and an apology to show you exactly what I felt. At this point, if you only realize this much- that my apologies were genuine- that would be a lot for me. Please don't reply back bc that's not why I sent this. I might have done a lot of wrong things but for once I wanted to do something right. I'm not sure if this matters at all but I wanted to give this a try. Anyway, I hope someday you realize that I never was acting anything and that my apologies were as sincere as they could get. I'm sorry for this but I couldn't resist putting it out there but I promise there will be nothing more from me. And again, I am sorry. For everything.
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knightfury69

One,don't act like you are doin me any favour by telling me how good I am or that,how sorry you are. If you are making any effort for asking what you want genuinely,that's your choice. I didn't ask for this. 
            Two,i am not obliged to be nice or understanding every time. I have my life too. 
            Three,I said you were welcome before. I take back my words now,you are not allowed to barge in as you please or whenever you feel like. Frankly,this whole thing about helping you out,was something i knew I should not ever expect anything from you. It was purely selfless.
            Four,It was Dylan. When he asked you,you don't need to act more dumb by being bratty ; for asking supersimple thing or that wasn't simple for you coz it wasn't even your real name. Either way,I don't care. You had your chance at  coming clear. Everything expires. So do the diary thang. 
            
            Five,I know I've been there. But you don't put it out as excuse to everyone coz they might be going thru same and you wouldn't even know. I have seen more life,people and situations than you. If you wanna teach someone two cents,teach yourself to be humble and compassionate with everyone,even with ones who did you wrong or even the ones who stand by your side and who chose to stand by you even when you didn't believe in yourself enough.
            
            Six,I don't have any grudges. Your time with me just ends here.
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The_Broken_Girl_786

PS A friendly advise Mr. Thread Maker, don't do this to anyone else. Even if they deserve it and worse. Because if they are anything like me, then you should know that the darkness from where we come out, it never actually goes away. Bc once you have been there, you can never see the light again. Not in the same way. The darkness is always there. Lurking behind the shadows. Waiting patiently for just one strike from someone so that it can grab us and yank us back to where we started from. Obviously, it's just a friendly advice... you know if you ever feel like helping a depressed person again.
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