Mel: Okay, here's the deal...
In four days I am hoping to go to Oklahoma so I can visit my grandfather's (PaPa) grave...It will be the two year anniversary of his death, I was there when cancer took him...I was so...Unemotional that, it wasn't even real, I never shed a tear and just played video games...I was 12...
Here I am now, 14, watching my Aunt's life slowly be drained...All I did was barely touch her arm...and now there's a huge gash in her arm...Dialysis is weakening her...to the point..she's in so much pain...The nursing home has put her on morphine and taken her out of dialysis...
Hospice has given her 3 days to a week to live...and God...so help me! If I have to go to another fucking funeral this summer...I will be a walking zombie!
Because I will shut out all emotions...
And now, I get news that..I won't even be able to get away from my house and go to my best friends house...CAUSE SHE'S MOVING!
So if I disappear for days at a time...Sorry...
I'll try my best, but if I do disappear it means I am on Hiatus for a while...Gomenasai...