The_Cynical_Idealist
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…Hello there.
It has been a really fucking long time, hasn't it?
Okay. I should probably explain myself here. Last time I logged into Wattpad, I said I was done with my online activities. I was going to focus on "real life" and other such things. Have that totally perfect life I'd crafted in my idealistic head.
HA. What was I thinking?
Over the course of a year and a half, therapeutic boarding school brainwashed me. I've spent the last year relearning how to live in this world again. Now, approaching the one-year anniversary of "graduating" from (reading: getting the hell out of) my program, I realize what my online life meant to me. What my friends meant to me. I allowed you to fade out of my life to pursue my selfish goals. I began to believe that I was better off without my internet friends, that somehow the friendships I crafted through cyberspace were less real than those in the outside world. And then, tonight, all at once, I realized that was simply bullshit. Thus began a frantic internet search. I hoped desperately that I'd find someone, anyone from my life before boarding school. I went back to my old Sims 3 page, and looked at my final post on the site. Reading my words, and your comments… It made my heart hurt. I literal, physical, heartache. It all came rushing back, how important my online community was to me. But the site was barren. I could practically see the tumbleweeds rolling across the screen. And so I came here. At this point, I barely remember anything. My memory is shit. Details of my life become blurred beyond recognition, but the feelings still remain. So here I am, crawling back, on my knees, begging for your forgiveness. For your friendship. I am so sorry for forgetting you. And I will never let it happen again.
On another note, I read my old works on this site. Wow… I have changed a helluva lot. I mean. Um. Sheesh. I was quite the dramatic one. Immature, too. You all deserve medals for putting up with me! Hehe.
*end rambling*
