pain
pān/
noun
1.
physical suffering or discomfort caused by illness or injury.
"she's in great pain"
synonyms:	suffering, agony, torture, torment, discomfort More
2.
careful effort; great care or trouble.;she took pains to see that everyone ate well
synonyms:	care, effort, bother, trouble
;he took great pains to hide his feelings                                              

The pain is what keeps me Alive but it also keeps my sanity ......its the thing that I turn to when I have no one else

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