So mini rant:
9 years ago I realized that not everyone gives colours, letters and number personalities and genders. I also realized that not everyone associates people with colours and numbers. When I told my parents they said I was making it up and it was because I saw them in that colour of some thing. So for the past 9 years I have thought I was crazy. And then I searched it up and apparently it happens to a lot of people an it's called synesthesia. I showed my dad and he says Google I just showing me what I want to see and that it was lying. it is now 12:36 am and I just found a whole group of people like me who have it. And I have been crying for the past half hour while watching these because I finally feel validated. Like I've been told my entire life that I was making this up and I'm not. And not only that but I'm not the only one.
Which brings us to the end of my confused screaming. Thank you for listening. I just needed to vent.