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DUDE GOOD LUCK WE LOVE YOU <3!!! /p

Hey buddy, take care of yourself. I'll miss you <3

EHAT IF BEFORE I LEFT I JUST WROTE THE MOST GORY FUCKED UP THING I COULD IMAGINE?!

My consolation is today. Hopefully I will be staying in Cali. Wish me luck.

Congrats on moving out!

So uh. Update. I'm kinda moving out? 
          
          Last night my parents made my girlfriend cry by calling them rather rude things then said they won't allow me to cause that drama. I was quite literally in the shower and they were fine and laughing before but when I came out, they were crying and having a panic attack with my mom in the room saying these rude things 
          
          This was my last straw, so I told them I'm either moving out or going to residential again and uh.. yeah. Res it is.
          
          I don't know how long I'll be there, the program is at least three months long, so yeah. I will try to post a message the day I leave. I hope when I get home I can start working full time and move out. Anyways uh.. yeah. See y'all later 

So uh. You know the health problems I'm facing?
          
          It's my meds.
          
          Lately my parents are acting odd. Especially with my meds. 
          
          The other night, I had my boyfriend over. We were talking and I started bringing up how I don't know much about my meds, down to me not even knowing what they are called. All I know is that my mom told me one is called geodon but when I looked it up it looks completely different from what I normally take?
          
          But anyways, I was talking more about it and I eventually mentioned how she has only been giving me half of one of my prescriptions. Like.. I think I need 100mg but she only gives me 50? Without docs permission. Some days she doesn't even give me certain meds. It's gotten really bad lately. My vomiting also started once she started changing my meds.
          
          Anyways, with this discovery, the next night where my boyfriend and girlfriend came over, we were in my room where my mom gave me my first half of meds. (She gives them to me around 15 minutes apart) I read the information on the pill out loud. One side said something like LMT 100 and the other said Taro and it was a round peach colored pill. Later, my boyfriend and I were in the kitchen making coffee and my mom came in and gave me THE SAME EXACT MED I asked her about it and told her she gave me the wrong one and she got really defensive and started saying how I was wrong and how I was getting things mixed up. 
          
          She uh.. has a history of gaslighting me and manipulating me.. so uh yeah. I hid the pill and threw it out.
          
          I don't know what to do and I don't know how long this has been happening. Things have gotten really bad though. I'm hallucinating whole conversations and I have been having a ton of manic episodes. There are some more concerning factors occurring, but I am in contact with a trusted adult and if I get enough proof I may be able to get away from my parents. Uhm.. anyways, any advice?

Get well soon pookie

The impulse in me says to cosplay J*mmy from Mouthwashing.
          
          I hate him
          
          Genius character design 
          
          I still hate him
          
          But I low-key kinda look like him rn-
          
          So what if...

Anyways, I'm currently in the hospital hooked up to a heart monitor. How are y'all?