I wish more than anything that you could have been my wife. I'm so sorry for everything that happened between us. I was trying my best to do right by you and help you get better and I made it worse. I'm sorry for everything. I was a fool and I was blind to all the signs that screamed at me that you were doing me dirty because I so badly wanted to believe that deep down you could love me the same way I love you. a deep unconditional love that tears at my heart because no one will ever be mine. I'm sitting in my room, hoping that girl that confessed her love to me so many years ago will come home soon, even though I know she is a fantasy now. I love you so much serenity.
