Ski

happy mothers day !! remember to give your mom/person who raised you a hug and tell her how much you love them.

hiyaaaa <3

might go to a mental hospital .... last time you might talk to me

things bothering ski
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          [deadbeat mom and dad]
          [can find out what religion i am]
          [people hiding shit from me]
          [found out both mom and dad were prostitutes]
          [im mentally, physically, and emotionally tired]
          [emotionally and physically hurt]
          [college]
          [grades]
          [losing friends]
          [doesnt want to exist]
          [feels lonely all the time]
          [only really smiles when in a virtual word where I can escape the real world]
          [nightmares]

so uhm ...how do you collect yourself and not feel like shit when all you can do is tear your family apart. You wanna help but your depression and anxiety tell you not too. My anxiety tells me not to cause "what if i fuck up". My depression tells me not to cause "they wont notice that i even did it cause they never do". I honestly got yelled at for crying in the kitchen trying to fight the urge to want to actually kill myself ... i was on the floor under the medicine cabinet... head in my knees fighting it the best i could... merical im still alive i guess

so i think wattpad is the best place to share my GAY self

everything is all figured out ... all my friends helped me and thxs to my grandma for letting me stay

might not update a lot due to family stuff sorry guys

happy thanksgiving guys/gals / and non-binary people

The wasted years
          The wasted youth 
          The pretty lies
          The ugly truth