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Thea, what is this "Forms and Submissions" thing where you mentioned me?  I don't mind at all, I'm just not familiar with it and don't know what it is.

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Part 4
          
          I'm not posting this because I want sympathy. I want to process this in the only way I know.
          
          Write.
          
          Can I get over a betrayal? Can I get over the fact that I was never considered to be a part of the household? Can I get over the fact that after the marriage date was set and people (who knew our dating history) expected me to be normal with him?
          
          I don't have any answers today. I don't even know who to trust but knowing that I wrote this makes me understand it was not a delusion. It happened. I was in love with my ex who said he wouldn't give any hope but kept indicating that he was not serious with her and wanted to give me the highest position because he was telling me the truth.
          
          I don't know if I can heal because if a person like him can hurt me, the others could shove a dagger through. Maybe it's my pain making it larger for everything to finally break down. 2 years of chasing an answer for forgiveness to take me back, and all I'm left is with broken pieces of myself.
          
          Yes, people can be crazy in love. But apparently, my feelings are shit. Apparently, it's the rejection I can't handle. But I was never told that "I'm choosing another person." I was told that, "You have a year, and I could choose you based on what I see."
          
          Excuse my grammar today. If I write anything for Rose Chase today, my main character  Shannara would be running away or may end up killing Galen.
          
          Today, I want to heal, and today I want to just curl up into a ball and let it out because this happened to me, and hopefully, I can trust something to let this pain go.
          
          Hopefully tomorrow i can delete this post. For today I'm keeping it.
          
          Thank you for reading if anyone of you reads it

Part 3
          
          And today their marriage has been decided. December. 10 days before my birthday. I had to sit and listen while the family decided and had to keep my face blank. 
          
          Now breathing feels too heavy when I'm alone in my room. You can be in a house full of people who know exactly what your going through and still feel lonely. 
          
           

Part 2
          
          I would have been happy if I'd been just discarded and thrown away rather than being provided a home when I am jobless and homeless. I invested ten years of my life with a person I considered my life.
          
          That person told me that to get back with him I had to show what I would get on the table. I have a year and that he wanted to see what I would do to and then decide if he wanted to get back into a relationship.  
          
          I became the woman he had not chosen to continue, but also I got told that he can leave his fiance because "she is my dog." And "dogs always know their place." He said he only introduced her to his family because he wanted no judgements when I stayed at his home. He told me that even if I did tell her what he told me, "she would bark at me." 
          
          
          I can say that desperation makes you want to trust anything to get back into a relationship. I wanted it to work, I couldn't lose him. Because I broke up when he said that if you love me you will let me go and I did to show I did love him. Foolish right? Yeah in less than a year he is now engaged to a woman and still he says, "You have until next year to show me what you can do."
          
          At the cost of another woman's feelings? I didn't want to be that. I cannot be the reason another woman has tears in her eyes and do I know her enough to tell her? Or should I? These were questions when his mother gave me a shelter. How can you do this to a family?
          
          No idea.
          
          

          I didn't want to write this. Not one bit of it. 
          
          There's a line I have written in Mystery of the Midnight Sky.
          
          Goodbyes happen twice. Once when the person walked away and once when you accept, they are never coming back.
          
          I invested in a person for ten years, and up until now, I thought love could make it alright. 
          
          Until love was conditional. Until love required evaluating benefits and measuring what was brought to the table. Until love vanished under hurt and was easily replaceable. Until love made you feel like a crack in the mirror. Until love made you feel worthless enough to contemplate ending it. Until love became the very reason you don't feel hope.
          
          Until I sit here and type with tears flowing out of my eyes.