Skycloud

There's something I need to get off my chest.
          
          
          In my country, and in my religion, being gay is a sin. It's wrong. But for years now there's been a feeling inside. I would look at men and not feel anything but then I'd look at women and my heart pounded. I thought it was okay. I thought there was nothing wrong. But then I asked my mom and about it. And she told me that it was wrong and that gay people are sick and mentally ill. That god hates them. And those thoughts ,that I'm sick and wrong, are engraved in my head. I can't make them go away. And I can't just suddenly start to like men either. It's made me extremely depressed. I've held knifes to my skin, and some days to my neck. The thoughts that I'm a horrible person for even having these feelings makes me want to fling myself over the windowsill. I don't want to have to live like this. I can't. I like my religion. I do. But I can't force myself to do this anymore. I can't. So now I'm stuck. Stuck between the two. I don't know what to do anymore, hell, I don't know why I even get out of bed anymore. I don't  want to have to deal with it every fucking day anymore. I don't know what to do. 

hi.

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I have... 100 followers.....THANK YOU! I wish I could tell you how happy this makes me feel! You guys are the most wonderful and amazing people I have ever met! Thank you. Thank you. Oh God thank you.. This is the most amount of people who ever even batted an eye at me. I love you all. 

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Nearly a hundred subscribers... That... That means so much to me... This is the most amount of people who thought I was good enough for them.... Thank you... This is one of the best days off my life... I love ya all! 

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