I understand. Pressure from sports is extremely agonizing, that’s for sure, from my experience you just gotta push through it and look on the bright side, like how many flowers bloomed around the world today, or the contributions to science made today. You just got take deep breaths and go to your happy place. Think of a favorite song, or movie, or memory and just sit for a few minutes.
As for your parents, I’m sure they are extremely proud of you no matter what. They understand. Is lockdown horrible? Yeah. But when lockdown is over, you are going to be bigger and better and smarter than before, you’ll make your way to succeed.