THEE ICE QUEEN

I'm so fucking over everyone. I know everything happens for a reason but I'm so tired of hearing it. It doesn't make me miss her less and it doesn't make anything change. I'm so tired of people saying that.Things do happen for a reason,but stop saying that to people when really bad shit has happened. Talk abt the now bc we might not see the reason for this shit for years.

I wish wp wasn't so dry. Where is everyone?

lmao this board is wild! It's so crazy how I used to post my every thought on here. Also extremely cringe worthy to read how I used to write. Oh god, i can barely read it especially the PM's.  Anyways,my depressed ass is back guys!

I swear I was so whipped last summer and it makes literally no fuckin sense. Like the thought of being with that person now is just like cringey. Like I was like high at the time.

I'm the happiest I've been in years and still fuckin sad. Ain't that some shit?

I swear my best friends worry the fuck outta me sometimes. No shit they'll be on some whole ass suicidal shit and then go ghost for days and expect me not to worry about them. Like bitch a nice lil hey I'm alive would be nice every now and again if you're gonna just disappear.

Everybody thinks depression is soooo cute and shit until you get too fucking sad to get up and brush your damn hair and have to spend 15 minutes trying to un-knot that shit.

I swear I find it funny how most people don't understand me. I do the majority of things I do to actually feel something. Isn't that why people do things to get some type of feeling or gratification out of it? So that's no different than me being high or doing anything else to not be fucking numb all the time. If yk yk if you don't good for you! Fuck off and stop acting like bitch for things you can't comprehend.

I wanna cry......

I'm reading thirteen reasons why and it really makes me wonder would anyone ever really care about me if I decided to go? (Just to clarify this isn't just the book talking)Would I have anyone who truly even gave a fuck about me for more than just a year? The answer is probably not. It's funny because everyone's always like,"I would! I would!" Would they really? Would anyone really care after three months or a year max after my mother finds me overdosed in my bedroom? The answer is no. It really makes me wonder why the fuck do people keep fucking trying to convince me that there's something more here to stay for. There is nothing,I am nothing,and there is no reason to notice if I'm gone. 
          
          Sorry for ranting. I know your getting sick of listening to me carry on about this. Don't worry tho you won't have to see my notifications much longer.