Thelonleywriter_xxx

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Random but I'm getting the urge to text my ex and explode telling him how I feel lol. But then thats inviting him back in my life which I don't want. I've gotten to a point where I realize that our relationship wasn't all sunshine. He wasn't all sunshine. I hope he knows how much he's hurt me. I hope he feels miserable. He was my first love and I hate him. I hate him because I was so deeply in love with him that I allowed behaviours that I knew were bad. I hate him for how he changed and I hate him for how he makes me feel still. I hate him for still being inside my head. I hate him. And sometimes I just want to scream in his face and punch him. Fuck him. I hate how my last message to him was me saying I'd always love him because what if that brought him comfort to what he did. I want him to know every painful detail about how I feel about him now and I want him to drown in his guilt. And I won't be there to forgive him or comfort him. I'm ovs a bitter ex. And probably in the wrong for posting this but he wouldn't find it here. And I wanted to write it down. Plus it wouldn't hurt for some advice. How do I move on and find peace?

Thelonleywriter_xxx

this message may be offensive 
Random but I'm getting the urge to text my ex and explode telling him how I feel lol. But then thats inviting him back in my life which I don't want. I've gotten to a point where I realize that our relationship wasn't all sunshine. He wasn't all sunshine. I hope he knows how much he's hurt me. I hope he feels miserable. He was my first love and I hate him. I hate him because I was so deeply in love with him that I allowed behaviours that I knew were bad. I hate him for how he changed and I hate him for how he makes me feel still. I hate him for still being inside my head. I hate him. And sometimes I just want to scream in his face and punch him. Fuck him. I hate how my last message to him was me saying I'd always love him because what if that brought him comfort to what he did. I want him to know every painful detail about how I feel about him now and I want him to drown in his guilt. And I won't be there to forgive him or comfort him. I'm ovs a bitter ex. And probably in the wrong for posting this but he wouldn't find it here. And I wanted to write it down. Plus it wouldn't hurt for some advice. How do I move on and find peace?

Thelonleywriter_xxx

It's been 4 months since I have last published a chapter from my wolverine fan fic. Are you guys still here? Are you mad at me...? Hopefully not lol understandable tho. Where have I been? Well I had quite a busy 2025. My nan had cancer, I was jobless for a while, college work was a nightmare, my anxiety was all over the place, recently broke up with my boyfriend, writing my own fantasy book I want to get published this year....A lot has happened. But I wanna try and complete this book if you would still like me to? I'm sorry for disappearing my loves.

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Yes, we’d love to!!! Happy to have you back, missed you!!!
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SammyDaEmily

Where did fortunate go?

Thelonleywriter_xxx

@SammyDaEmily hopefully it will be finished lol, but I'm quite busy nowadays I already have my X-Men fanfic that needs finishing. But it shouldn't be a problem to republish ( I'm sad tho cuz all the comments are gone now lol)
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SammyDaEmily

Im still interested i loved the series will it ever be finished? I'd love u to republish
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Thelonleywriter_xxx

@SammyDaEmily didn't know if people still liked the series so I put it into my drafts. If people are interested then I'll republish it
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Live_ll56

I have a fan question.
          How did you develop the character Jayden Hope and how did it match Logan's?
          Considering they both had similar traumatic experiences and even though Logan had no memory of his life before.

Thelonleywriter_xxx

@Live_ll56 interesting question. Jayden hope is a character I thought could match Logan's animalistic nature? Thats hinted with her powers of animal transformation. They both have trauma in which makes them both struggle with anger issues, flashbacks/nightmares. I wanted Jayden to kinda be the female match for Logan in a sense. E. G they both smoke and they both got experimented on. Jayden was a character I thought would just suit Logan as I never understood the whole Jean x Logan appeal? I wanted something to come/develop from Jayden's trauma especially since she was at an age where she discovered she had powers and she was so young. So her having bipolar disorder made her an interesting character to write as I don't see much representation it was interesting to research so I could portray it correctly. I thought it was good that Logan had someone who was as in pain/troubled as he is so it was like he could help her and vise a versa so it's like they are each others person. Jayden's face claim was always going to be Phoebe Tonkin I love her and she's just the right vibe. Jayden's name was just cuz I love it sm it's tomboyish and again just fits her vibe.
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