Thelovemaria_17

Heyyy so Like, I kinda started a blog or something?? Idk i have no idea
          	
          	https://thelovemaria-17.blogspot.com/2026/01/occupy-space.html
          	Hmu? HAHA

Thelovemaria_17

Surviving 5 years of absolute cold, just trembling and shivering changes everything. I was used to Waking up and searching for anything to harm myself with. To wish i was dead. To have to motivate myself to get out of bed, give myself a reason the live. One more day, I promise, Maria. Counting calories and excercising Until I'd be unable to breath and not being able to do anything Because my eating disorders and my mental disorders took everything away. My heart broken and shattered in a million pieces. Hating everything and others and myself and life and crying every day. I bear scars and my hair is thin and I still suffer every day. But this time, I do not Plan to simply survive. I Plan to and I will begin living. I have been living more and more since 2024. And even if These two years have been so incredibly hard they have given me something which I needed; Hope. I needed to believe that it was possible for me to live and love. And I saw glimpses of the universe. And I wish to live in It. I promise, Maria, I will try to Make this year your best so far. I promise I will try my best to always be kind to you and to treat you so, That you will actually remember the year, and You memories will not be consumes by rage and Depression and cold hunger and you'll remember them Because They're pleasant and warm and Because your braun will allow you to. I promise I will hug you, Maria. You'll be warm. I'll give you a fire, Maria, and one day You Won't have to wonder if It will go out At any given time and You Won't miss the cold. You'll simply push the wood in and smile, making smores just Because you can. Because life is beautiful. You are beautiful, Maria. Forget never Who you are. What you have survive. And know that all you will experience - you will get through It. Your heart will allow It. Your heart will survive. You will survive. And this time, you will live.
          
          With a tired mind,
          
          Maria, who loves you.

Thelovemaria_17

My gorgeous lover wrote about me. Not only was it about me,  it was breathtaking. The words, the way he shaped themto his desired effect. Goosebumps forme on my skin and i sat there shaking, a desire for him, in no way sexual, I mean it, I desire  his heart and soul. I wish to cradle and kiss both, to be blessed in his light. Today, I, the artist, became the muse.

Thelovemaria_17

Happy birthday to me
          Finally 16,never thought id iive so long
          Thank you for Your support and love <3

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@Thelovemaria_17 HAPPY BDAYY
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            THANK YOUUUUUUU I LOVE YOU DONT WORRY
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            Thank you Thank you!!
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