I really hate lying and truth to be told, I'm rather bad at it.
But even so, I still continue lying.
Why, you ask ? I don't know the answer either. 

It started when a ' monster ' told me to lie and I have been lying ever since. There is no single thing or person in this world whom I can't fool, so many masks I wore that I doubted I would ever be able to recognize my true face. Who was I ? Would anyone even remember me if I suddenly disappeared one day ?

 Nobody ever would. That girl whom you never bothered taking notice of, the one sitting in a corner, she might just disappear the next day. Then again, it's like I never existed in the first place.

Now, now, don't cry. A monster like me deserves no pity. It's alright though, I knew it from a long time ago that I had long ago lost myself. This crazy red, I should have noticed at first but now I can't do anything but pretend that everything would still be alright, making promises that you wouldn't be destroyed.

Madder red, please stop bringing ruin to somebody else's future. But if that child can smile just a little bit more again, even losing myself in this madly-dyed red is fine.  Spring comes once more and the world becomes an adult, faded tears for a loved one swell and disappear noticed by nobody. This insane red, before I realized it, I couldn't tell anyone. This world of happiness is ending, that child was going to be destroyed. 

Your cries of not wanting to be destroyed. ' If I had that mad red, could I save his future ? " I cried as I thought, hiding this pain behind a smile. 

Madder red, please, no more. Don't destroy anyone else's future. Even if I'm playing a game of ' pretend heroes ', an operation all alone, if that broken future of yours can still be saved ...

Madder red, take me instead. Stop destroying ' that person's ' future, please let him be able to smile once again.

. . . .

" Red is the colour of a hero. "

I wonder if that child is finally smiling now.