TheyellowBbokkari

I did it-
          I deleted stay and engene from my bios 
          
          Why? The fandoms have been pissing me off for a while
          Not every stay nor engene but the bigger picture 
          Around a year ago stays made me lose interest in skz, I still love skz and they have a special place in my heart
          I also managed to overplay their music, I still love it but some songs are too loaded with memories 
          Some songs don't make me happy anymore, instead they make my heart ache
          Over two years of walking, dancing, studying, drawing, painting and just being to Stray Kids's music does that
          I have a playlist with all their songs on it and played it on repeat weekly for nearly two years
          
          For Enhypen, I can't get myself to stan them anymore, it's not the same group that I fell in love with two years ago
          I haven't listened to their music since march
          My heart's still too broken for that 
          For me it was kind of like ot7 or nothing, I didn't realise it before the second the news hit
          Not to add on to the ot6/7 fights 
          I can't stand with engenes anymore
          (Adding on nct's expiring contracts it has not been easy, I couldn't deal with all of this at the same time)
          
          It's the time for a new era, say goodbye to Enhypen and being a stay
          
          This is how I find myself drifting to the calmer fandoms to escape the drama
          Seventeen and NCT 127 contract renewals and Nexz & NCT Wish
          
          I just wanted to write it out
          I think I'll still be Bbokkari's fried chicken, I'm not ready to change my username 
          If someone read this
          Thank you for listening 
          
          
          Bonus if someone's confused lol
          (Then why not remove blink? Because for me being a blink has always meant more and less 
          BlackPink has a special place in my heart as my first kpop group ever but I was never super into the fandom either
          For me being a blink was listening to their music not that much of being inside the fandom)

Another episode of i hate wp and my phone 
          I got inspiration for another story yesterday and wrote abt 400 words ik it's not much but anyways 
          Accidentally pressed delete and of course then my phone lagged and it's all gone -_-

Y'all I'm trying to write smth and I need help 
          Which idol is the most likely to go to a book store?

wattpad is being a total jerk. i have no idea if my replies in the comments even went through lol

I underestimated the amount of world building and planning I need to do T-T
          Why did I have to create a magical fantasy world w superpowers, royal families and magical creatures?
          
          I have rn like 45 characters planned and I need some more T-T well some of them are from passed generations or for other reasons don't exist anymore but as my story includes royal families I need characters as siblings, cousins, aunts, uncles, parents, grandparents and many of these characters also need their loved ones for it to be realistic :| 
          Rn I have 4 unfinished familytrees, 11 A5 sized pages of notes for the superpowers and one magical creature
          Fantastic only the superpowers are finalised this is gonna take a whileeee T-T

This might be controversial 
          But as kpop fans do we realise what's just fan service and what's real?
          Kpop idols are trained to do what they do and it's their job
          
          How can we be so sure that they're the people they say that they are? How can we be so sure that the members really love each other as family? How can we say that all the ships are real and not preplanned by the marketing team?
          
          Of course some things are real but kpop idols are great actors 
          And by time people do get closer 
          But still in the end they're just humans 
          They fight and have misunderstandings
          
          Lastly there's something I'm sure of, the k-industry breaks people 
          The pressure, ruthless judgement, the fear of getting dropped out and the fear of disappointing others
          Many of the idols who were trainees for a long time seem to doubt themselves and be insecure 
          That's not surprising when you learn what trainees go through 
          
          Are we just blindly following kpop groups and walking into the trap of people who just want money? 
          Are we supporting groups or a toxic industry?
          
          I hope that I made you think a little deeper

The introductions and the first chapter of adaw are back up again! The rest will be published when I've sorted the plot and rewritten a few parts. 
          (In the introductions there's also my failed drawing lol)

I need help lol
          Some might remember that I tried writing the book has been unpublished since December for editing reasons (adaw another day another world fantasy book)
          I've planned oc versions for some of the skz members 
          Felix and Seungmin would be girls named Filena and Anastassin
          i have perfect love stories for them lol
          But i can't write them without changing them into Fina and Tas for characterical reasons (dynamics etc a "love is stupid" girly falling in love at first sight hits different)
          Tho I really don't want to rewrite

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