ThirishaP
So…
My father passed away.
I don't think I've fully understood it yet. I don't think my mind has caught up with what has happened. He was only 58. Fifty-eight. It's a number I keep thinking about, because it feels far too young for someone to be gone.
I've seen my father every single day for 23 years. Twenty-three years of his presence being such an ordinary, constant part of my life. And now, somehow, he's just a photograph.
How is that supposed to make sense?
I'm an only child. His daughter. We had our disagreements, our arguments, and our moments when we didn't see eye to eye. But he was my father. He was protective, he was caring, and he loved me in the ways he knew how.
And now, my mother and I have to learn how to live in a world where he isn't here.
I don't know how to put that feeling into words.
What hurts the most is that we haven't even had the time to properly grieve. There's so much to arrange, so much to take care of, so many responsibilities that don't pause just because your heart has stopped keeping up.
The world keeps moving. People keep going about their lives. And we're here, trying to understand how ours has changed forever.
It feels so unfair. So unbearably cruel.
I know I have a lot of grief waiting for me. Maybe it hasn't fully reached me yet. Maybe I'm still trying to survive the reality of it before I can actually feel it.
I don't know when I'll be back or when I'll be able to write again. Right now, I'm just trying to get through one day at a time.
Thank you for being here, for your patience, and for all the love you've shown me. I may not have the words to respond to everyone, but please know that your kindness means more to me than I can ever explain.
Take care of yourselves. 🤍
WOOYOsCHROMEHEARTEU
@ThirishaP I don’t have the words to say that it’s okay because it’s not but take as long as you need know that your father’s presence will be with you and I hope that you and your mother will be able to grief fully and properly.My deepest condolences.
sick_ick
@ThirishaP some goodbye's would feel like a heartbreak while others make us feel like a part of us was taken. Life itself is a wonder. Your family still consists of your dad. Except it's a long distance relationship. Make sure you to not lose yourself to this situation. You and your mother will surely make it through and I hope you'll prioritise your mental health as well as your physical health more than anything. My love and support will always surround you!! Sending my heartfelt condolences to you and your family!!
Apheral
@ThirishaP sending you my condolences to you and your mum. It's never easy saying goodbye to our parents. Take time to grieve. Remember you are a strong beautiful person don't rush let it happen at your pace not at anyone else's pace. We will be waiting here for you when you come back. Also remember to take care of yourself too ❤️
