@Area-k
Sure I can explain what u got since the story's beginning, actually it’s too complicated. Ray sees Mew as his best friend but he discovered himself falling in love most passionately and purely with him
Someday after Mew got drunk they ended up sleeping together. Ray was super happy because that night Mew didn’t stop repeating his name in pleasure and begging him for more. But Ray has mixed feelings with love and guilt for mew because he knows how mew thought about him as just friends, as well as he rejected him several times
Let’s go back to the start, Mew witnessed Ray’s horrible actions towards himself, drunk, and depressed
and this punished mew psychologically
But there’s something that happened I can’t get clear enough, Mew started staring at Ray whenever he around someone or looking at Alan whenever he half naked also he keep getting closer to Ray everytime this was happening visible for Ray and Top
Someday Mew confess to Ray he enjoyed being with him in touch as the night they slept together was unforgettable and even he said never enjoyed sex before even with his bf Top who was bothered by his interactions while they do it (Honestly that was the most complicated and weirdest part of the story)
Mew's sudden confession hurt and exploded Ray so bad, how the person he loved deeply secretly was exploited by him sexually
Top convinced Mew that he needed treatment for his problems and psychological disorders caused by his extreme attachment to Ray despite staying with Top, as well as the problems and conflicts caused by Ray's illness, which forced him to go to a mental hospital to regain his senses until he met Ray's mother, who Ray had told him was the reason for his suffering and continuous drinking, and that she had died, only to be surprised that she was still alive and well in the mental hospital.
