TigerLayingonBed

Damn I really was a depressed ass bitch wow.
          
          Anyway like idk 4 years later I'm typing this cause I really was cringy lmao
          
          I also don't even use Wattpad anymore wtf
          
          Anyone who used to follow me or even remember me, heloooooooo!!

Dang I was really damn depressed... welp
          

Just woke up and my hands are trembling 

So Uhhh lately i have been hallucinating........a lot.
          
          This has been going on for some time.... A this time, I also found out that my depression and anxiety has worsened and that I have insomnia. I also maybe have anorexia, Nah I'm just paranoid that's all. It's just that I have been acting strangely, i suddenly can't sleep or can't be hungry, I even cried for no reason at all. Ive also been ignoring my works and assignments,  i want to do them but I just can't do it and it's not on purpose.....
          
          I'm scared because all this things have been happening even though I'm still at a very young age... 
          
          Anyways thanks for reading this (if you did..) 

I want you to know that you have meaning. You are beautiful, amazing, smart, kind and plain awesome. Don’t let anyone tell you differently, even yourself. As you know I go through a lot too, but just because life is hell, doesn’t mean you won’t find some happiness. So get out there. Explore the wonders of this world and go far. Because I know you can. Everyone here loves you. Including myself. Now have a good day, alright?

Do you want me to pm you?...You can rant and stuff if you want...I feel the same way you do. If you need any help I'll gladly do anything I can to support you.

I'm so lonely,  honestly the only person that I care now is my father and my old babysitters. 

Sometimes you done a mistake, you regret it and it became a problem in your life. It's almost 1am, I'm still awake. I'm stressed,  depressed and mostly heartbroken.  I have an important exam that i really want to pass but i can't stop thinking about the events that happened last year.
          
            And now seeing it's outcome this year just hurts me. For me 2019 had been Shitty and i think for the rest of my life it's going to be the same! FUCK LIFE! FUCK EVERYTHING!!
           
            I wanna die but I'm too scared..... I need help but i don't want to.  I want to feel the pain because i know i deserve it! 

Is it bad I also want to kill myself..?  
          
          Because every time I woke up, itll be the same. Wake up, eat, go to school,  go to tuition, go home , shower, eat bad sleep then it'll repeat again and again and again and again and again...... 

Hey guys I don't think I'll be writing the stories anymore other than then the art and edits book
          
          It's because i broke up with my gf because we were still young and we have a lot to explore but... I miss her... I loved her and i still do but I'm not brave enough to confess to her again... Im scared she'll reject me because she's scared that I'll break her heart again. I didn't intend to do it.  But that's not the only reason. The other reason is that my country does not like the LGBTQ+ Community. And since 7th her ive had depression. And recently i hadn't been eating much and don't have an appetite. Sometimes i can't sleep. 
          
          Sorry that you wasted your time for reading this