""Loving is a feeling that brings both joy and pain to my heart. Joy from being with you, being filled with an emotion so deep and tender that no other feeling can compare. Pain from knowing that I'm so in love, that I'm more vulnerable than I've ever been." ~Unknown
Tremaine moved in with me once he was released. After being in the hospital for a month, he was happy to be in a regular bed again, and I was happy to be able to lie next to him in that bed. He still wasn't allowed to do much, but at least he was healthy and home. The marriage topic hadn't come up again, but I was perfectly fine with that. I didn't want to press the issue. I was pleased just knowing he wanted to be with me forever. I could wait to announce it to the world, for now that is. I think even Quintina was happy to have Tremaine back. I'd spent most of my time at the hospital over the past month, so she had to feel a little neglected. But since he moved in, Quintina rarely left his side. I was actually a little jealous.
I was so happy that my heart felt like it could burst from a joy overdose. Everything was absolutely perfect, and I hated it! I was completely miserable. I smiled for Tremaine. I smiled for my coworkers. Hell, I smiled for the strangers I passed on the street. But any moment I had that I was truly alone, I cried. I cried in my car on the way to and from work. I cried when I'd take a shower, and I was taking a few a day. I think Tremaine even thought I was sleeping around. I'd lie and say I was going to the store, just so I could be miserable without him knowing.
"Mia, what's going on?" Tremaine asked after he could no longer take the silence. I hadn't said two words since we'd sat down for dinner.
"Huh? What do you mean? Nothing's going on? Why do you ask?" I rambled. It was always hard to lie to Tremaine, and most of the time, he could tell I was lying.
"Mia, I know you better than anyone. I can lite..." http://wattpad.com/story/335050
