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It's fucking painful realizing you not irreplaceable for people, that you don't matter to them. The past week has been one of the worsts for me. It's bullshit how much time you can dedicate to work on something that you really want and all for what? Nothing. It sucks that your work and effort is worth nothing, that if you were to disappear hardly anyone would be affected by it. Some would be sad but after a few days they'll go on as if they never knew you. Seeking for help and comfort only makes it worse because no matter how much you try they don't help. God I've been drowning myself in all these problems so much I can't breathe because it is too painful to do so