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https://www.wattpad.com/story/377337269?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=PhamHanni2

Ive been writing alot of oneshots lately and ive been thinking about starting a story, idk what the plot is about yet but idk how often this would updated seeing how im a very very busy person , but i would do my best to. Ik this isnt gonna reach alot of ppl but if u see this and saw my oneshots lmk !

You know how fucking tired of my life I am. I wake up everyday to disappointment reeking in my brain. I literally wish that I could just fucking die. I hate having to think about all of the couples or people in the love because of how many times I’ve tried to be with the person that I actually love. I’ve tried love so many times and got rejected so many times that now when I think I’m in love I beat my self knowing that it’s never going to work out. No one has ever pursued me as a partner or ever wanted to be more than friends. I wake up knowing that I’m only loved by my family and my family alone. Yeah I’m thankful for them but I wish that just one day I could have a separate person not related by blood could ever just want to talk to me. I hate having to follow people around begging them to hang out with me or talk to me. No one has ever desired me I feel so unloved and ugly. I feel so ugly that I cover my face in photos, cover my smile when I laugh or smile, or even just try to hide my face when I’m around people. I just wish that I could find that one true person, but maybe I won’t even last that long because of how much I want to fucking blow my brains out of jump off a building or hang myself. I just want to fucking do something to get out of this god awful world.