TookForever

Continuation 
          
          Knowing me, if I ever get inspiration again and realise that writing is something that I am no longer embarrassed of, then I will return. I will however post greetings and thoughts once in awhile to aid those who feel lost and distant. So if anyone is feeling lonely and dealing eith negative emotions, text me on my board and let's create a community where we can help each other. Otherwise, it was nice knowing you all and I had a great pleasure reading your comments. 
          
          This is a very hard decision from my side. Even now when I'm writing this text, I seem unable to stop writing this message. Knowing very well that this will be my last piece of writing to you all. A fear and sense of loss festers in me somehow. Probably owing to the fact that 7 years of my life's work is going down the drain and every accolade like my first 200k reads will mean nothing. 
          
          I will delete all my works once I post this message and I hope that everyone has a great day, night or noon where ever you are. 
          

Hi everyone!!
          
          After a very careful deliberation, I have decided to quit wattpad once and for all. While writing my next work "7 days to live", I felt a foreboding sense of shame and embarrassment that I was unable to shake off. Having real humans to the mercy of my fantasy and absolutely de-characterizing them to a figment of my imagination has led no positive feelings of late. Initially, I started writing these fanfictions to work on my grammar and story telling skills while expressing my unleashed love for my favorite band. As time passed by and feelings started to wither, I realized that if someone had found out that I had been writing these books, I would feel nothing but guilt and shame instead of pride. And in life, all I want to be doing are things that I'm proud of. I however do not regret writing these stories as they have provided me a momentary distraction in tough times and let me keep my wild imagination as an adult. They were apart of my growing process and for that, I will forever be grateful. In the end of the day, what is the past if not a series of embarrassment.
          
          I also want to thank all the followers I've had in the past almost 7 years!! Being my follower must not have been easy as I've had turbulent update schedules and some weird imaginations. Every like, comment or read I got was a surge of dopamine. And the fact that people liked my work was the only thing I was proud of throughout this whole process.