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TopFan0809

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Ok, so there was this post with some guys that were wearing very revealing clothes. This one guy commented on this post saying "This is why we have no respect for the LGBTQ" And so I responded "you could at least respect the ones that dont dress like this." Because you know, everyone is able to be uncomfortable with seeing this because Oh no! Men's skin! They then responded "Respect is something that is earned, not given out like treats at halloween!"So me being me
          i responded with: Okay why not respect this? Most of us get up every day with depression because we aren't respected. We havent committed suicide no matter how many times we've been treated like filth.
          We get up every day and see the disappointment on our parents faces. Tell me, have you ever felt unaccepted? Are you told every day to kill yourself because of the gender you fucking like? Cuz I dont fucking think you've dealt with that pain. Maybe you should respect the people strong enough and proud enough to be who they truly are.
          So please, tell me, if i was a straight white male that was high up the food chain, would I have to deal with this?

TopFan0809

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I just posted this on Facebook to show my love for my boyfriend.
          
          Mkay so its kinda late, not really but whatever, and I'm in a sappy lovey dovey shit mood so Savannah Slack be prepared. YOU ARE ADORABLE I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I HAVE TO SAY IT! GOODNESS GRACIOUS. YES I AM CRAZY BUT I AM NOT BLIND. Anywhore, you are literally the most understanding person I know. Whenever I'm being a judgemental prick you tell me, somewhat nicely but blunt enough i realize I am in fact being judgemental. And yes, sometimes I am extremely terrified that you will move on from me. I am not an extraordinary person. I am not extremely smart, I am not extremely attractive, I am JUST ME. But yet you are still with me. Through all of my flaws. You literally are just plain perfect. And I know you probably will have absolutely no idea how to respond to this because thats how you are. You dont know how to respond to cheesy shit like this. And I'm somewhat sorry for calling attention onto you but at the same time I'm not because I love showing my family and friends how much I love you. Sorry not sorry. <3

TopFan0809

So I know everyone is posting about 9/11 and all but this is gonna be a bit different. Today a guy in my class thought it would be a brilliant idea to make joke about 9/11. He said that genders are like the Twin Towers. There used to be 2 but now the topics a bit touchy. I admit it was funny and clever but it was also offending. Especially for me since my family had friends who were lost in the attack and I have plenty of trans friends. We need to be respectful especially on a day like today.  

TopFan0809

Do you know what it's like to hate yourself? To starve yourself because you know your fat? To go an entire day eating only one meal and to start crying once you can't stop? And your just sitting there eating and crying and dying. Some days I go without eating because I know as soon as i start I won't stop. And I can't afford that. I have plenty of food in the house, plenty of money but I can't bear to eat it. I get told I'm pretty and cute but you have no idea the thoughts that go through my head. I say "thank you" or "i know" and act all confident but inside I'm saying, "No, I'm not. I'm really not." They say beauty comes from inside, but what if your ugly inside and out. When i see someone different I think wow, okay. And then my next thought is ok but I shouldn't judge. Like I can't make up my own damn mind. I'm dying and no one is here to help me

TopFan0809

They say destroy what destroys you.
          I did.
          I destroyed myself.
          Every time I went into the bathroom.
          I would look in the mirror.
          And at I hated how I looked.
          I thought I was fat,
          Ugly, stupid, worthless.
          Then you came along and changed that.
          You taught me to love myself. 
          I even started to wear clothes that werent always so baggy.
          But then you ruined it.
          And now I'm slowly sinking into a neverending whirlpool of sadness.
          Because I know nobody will accept me for the monster I am.
          Ive done terrible things.
          Things that nobody should have ever done.
          And now I'm finally getting what I deserve.
          I hate myself. 
          I'm paying the price.

KrJohnson7

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