ivalee127
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uhg, little over 3 years now... i still come on here to read the same 2 poems well the only 2 poems you have written.. i still keep all of your notes you wrote me from the hospital, the voice mails you left me.. it's the only way i can hear your voice... iv'e grown so much since you left sis, iv'e done a lot of stupid shit, went to the ER several times, it's been 3 years, and i'm finally coming to terms, well not really i still don't believe it... i remember when dad told me that you left, that you went home. At first i thought he was lying, until the tears fell from his face... then i knew... i remember seeing you for the last time, hugging you. Though you weren't really you. You where cold.. I remember Todd standing there with me at your little bed... he stood there with me after everyone left.. i wouldn't leave even though the told me i had to, to close the top. Of course i looked at then and said Fuck you that's my sister and i told her i would stand by her even on the worst days, and since this is the last time i will get to do that you can kiss my ass... i stood there while they threw the dirt on top of you i crashed down, wanted to throw myself in there with you, i remember screaming noo, take me with you, you promised.. you fucking promised Tori... why.. why... after they finished and they where walking away i laid on top of you for a good 45 minutes... dad and grandpa had to carry me away, after a year i went to see you i laid there on top of your grave, talking to you, knowing i'd never see you..
steph67
@ivalee127 Tori would be so proud of the young lady you have become and just reading your post you have so much of her in you.
