Kody Rodregez

Hey Kody. Idk why I still type here...it's been almost four years and I'm still not over it. I wish there were some way I could talk to you again. I miss you so much. My boyfriend helps a lot. Tomorrow will be 5 months we've been together. His name is Wallie. He came to visit me for my graduation. Oh yeah, I graduated...anyway, I'll see you soon 

Hey Kody. So things ended up sucking with Kayden. He cheated. Like four months ago. I have a new boyfriend. I don't wanna jinx this one though...I'm just scared he's gonna leave like the rest. Fuck I miss you, Kody.

Hey Kody. It's been hard since you died. I lost my grandfather and broke up with my ex. But I met this guy. His name is Kayden. He's amazing. It's been hard finding someone since you died but I hope this one lasts. I think it will. I have hope. Anyway, rest well darling

Hey just me....it's crazy how one lyric can make me think of you. While I'm thankful for the time we had, is it bad I still want more? I think about what life could've been. What we could have been. Just one kiss...one hug....something to make this ache go away. I thought I'd gotten rid of my depression....I mean I kinda did. My boyfriend helps. But...the love I had for you was so pure... irreplaceable. I didn't eat for weeks after you died. I couldn't. Anyway, I love you....I'll see you one day hopefully....rest well my darling

hey kody, just me after awhile......
          i need help..my step dad is being an asshole again, i wish you were here to protect me, but your not. 
          Honestly i feel like no one knows me when they see me smile, i know i should let go of my issues, but i cant.
          I want you, Jeffery ,and Tyler back but you all left me here.
          I know your out of this hell now and are probably living it right now but, i wish i could meet you guys up there ya know. But people i know are the reason im still here. I miss you so much right now. 
          I know im ranting on your page and im sorry, but i cant hold it in anymore.
          Everyone pushes me around, everyone neglects me, see me as a target, as someone to destroy. But somehow i still fake my smile and hide my pain from them, from everyone i try to act fine but im not. Im shattering bit by bit, just like I did when you left. I cant act like im ok anymore Kody. I need you here, I need someone to lean on that can physically hold me tight and say its ok, someone who can comfort me while i break...but i have no one for that. Sure i talk to people online about it, its not the same. 
          I feel like im on that edge again, the edge of quitting. I wish I could restart my life, I wish I stayed with you that day so you didnt leave. 
          Im the reason your gone.....I didnt stay when you asked me too. 
          It feels like this cat and mouse game, gettign cornered again, but not caught.
          They say life wont be forever but it feels as if its never ending. I walk with my hood up to hid my pain, I act like a bitch when im just building my walls higher, pushing people away.
          sorry for venting, i had to let that out. 
          I miss you  kody.........please come back

Hey baby I miss you so much. Things are actually okay for once. I met a guy, after struggling for a while after you. I miss you so much..and I don't know why you left me, but I hope its better there. I hope it was worth it. For the longest, I was mad at what you'd put Jazzy and I through. I thought, how dare you. I fucking broke down in the bathroom crying. And when I told my mom, her thing was, oh you'll get over it. I never did. I still love you, Kody. I always will....I miss you and I'll see you later..... ❤️

hey feeling lonely again....wish you would actually answer my messages but your gone........I'm so scared right now.....being hurt at school again, just like middle school......might come visit ya today tbh

hey cody i miss you. I hope you see this somehow and can say hi to tyler and jeffery for me. I miss you guys so much

its been a year today. Still cant believe ur gone. we all miss u. love u

God kody miss u like hell. March 2nd is the day u died and we met on Jan 19. I miss you and love u. I always, always, ALWAYS will. Rest in peace baby.