Desy

Hey guys,gal,nonbinary pal, and my wonderful friends that don't classify as neither female nor male. I would like to thank all of you for being her and all it means alot to me especial when recently ny life has been quite shitty and i don't have anyone to talk to or anyone that would understand my problems like i want to be open about what is going on but it is hard when nobody know what the hell you are going through and when you try to talk to someone they either leave you on seen/read or don't even look at the text i mean yeah i understand people have better lives than i do but it wo uh ld really help me out if i had someone to talk to about this shit because me having panic attacks and mental breakdowns every night is not healthy really when you have a fuck up life and have people who says they are there for you but can't see through your fake smile because i guess i am so go at hiding my feelings that nobody knows anything about what is going on.
          
          
          
          Sorry for the rant i have just been feeling like shit.

You don't have to read this is you don't want to i just need a place to rant...
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Okay i don't if yall ever fell this way but yesterday was an important day for me and i tried texting someone but they were busy and i totally understand that but can someone please explain why the hell i was so confident yesterday and today i feel like shit and depressed like i honestly think that everyone hates me.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Sorry i judt had to rant.

Hey you guys,gal, and all my nonbinary and genderflud pals, and all my other friends that don't classify as female or male i just want to apologize for not being active i have been dealing with some drama and shit because my bestfriends ex boyfriend is saying stuff about her that is not true like saying she was cheating when she was on of the most loyal girls you would ever meet and it just has me pissed off so again i am sorry just life is really being shitty so i apologize for the inconvenience

Just saying something that half of you probably won't even bother reading but idk why but out of no where i started crying i honestly do not know why.

Okay so it is currently January 2,2020 at 11:39pm where I live and i believe it is currently raining ir something is hitting my houses roof and i was haveing a panic attack and this just makes it wore and no body that i can talk to about this is up and i have not slept in the  past 24 hours if i am up by 3 am that will make 48 hours but i hope i can get some sort of sleep tonight 

Merry Christmas everyone i hope you have a great day and i wish all of you a happy new year.

Okay so i would like to point out the fact that it is fucking 12:22am on Christmas eve and i haven't slept in 3 days what the fuck is wrong with me anyone know. I am just confused about this and like i am not tired so idk. Help me please send help

Okay so nobody in my family follows me on here so i need your support and all because i am most likely going to another state to go vist some family over my Christmas break well i thought that since i came out to my parents so i thought i should come out to my cousins and aunt and uncle but i am honest really scared but i feel they deserve to know

Okay so if yall don't here from me for a while it is due to stress that i don't what to do about it is kind of complex but i will eventually be back and when i do i will be updating me chapters and all so if you have any questions or anything pm me instead of replying to this post or any post thanks 

So there is this dog i found outside on my porch and we are trying to help it find her owner but the woman that tryed to claim her as her dog looked like she scared the dog because the dog whimpered down and stuck it tail in between her back legs and then the second the woman waked away the dog can up to me and started wagging her tail and licking my face