Toxic_Bby

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Where the fuck are you
          	What the fuck. I feel like I should break up with you. It's not like we're really dating. It's just a label. In your absence I've been associating with my ex. I'm not sure if it's because you're ignoring me or I actually have gained some sort of feeling towards him. I'm starting to wonder if I should toss you to the side. You've allowed me to stay up many nights now and cry over your absence. I'm entitled to be angry, yes. But I'm rather... Bored. Yes, I'm bored. You're more of like a toy that I've grown to fond of. I simply need something new, something exciting. You've told me many times that you'd always be in touch when I needed you. Where are you now? My subconscious is slowly causing my brain to decay. I can feel the internal corpse coming upon me. You haven't dared to say a word to me today. You had reminded me time after time again that you love me. It's funny how you only fancy me when you're bored. Place your attention here, I will not become your play thing. I'm tired of being treated like someone's bitch. I am to be treated like the queen of hell. I will shoot you down if you attempt to drag me down.

Toxic_Bby

this message may be offensive 
Where the fuck are you
          What the fuck. I feel like I should break up with you. It's not like we're really dating. It's just a label. In your absence I've been associating with my ex. I'm not sure if it's because you're ignoring me or I actually have gained some sort of feeling towards him. I'm starting to wonder if I should toss you to the side. You've allowed me to stay up many nights now and cry over your absence. I'm entitled to be angry, yes. But I'm rather... Bored. Yes, I'm bored. You're more of like a toy that I've grown to fond of. I simply need something new, something exciting. You've told me many times that you'd always be in touch when I needed you. Where are you now? My subconscious is slowly causing my brain to decay. I can feel the internal corpse coming upon me. You haven't dared to say a word to me today. You had reminded me time after time again that you love me. It's funny how you only fancy me when you're bored. Place your attention here, I will not become your play thing. I'm tired of being treated like someone's bitch. I am to be treated like the queen of hell. I will shoot you down if you attempt to drag me down.

Toxic_Bby

Laying in bed wondering what could of become of you and regretting every decision you've ever made is a terribly difficult habit to break. It's these moments that you decide to over analyze the things that people have said to you and the things they've done. You question if they even cared about you. You're mind wanders and you begin to think about your first love and wonder how something that perfect could have ended to terribly. You had your whole life planned out. Where did it go wrong? 
          
          I can't help but to criticize everything about my body while seeing these perfect girls commenting on his Instagram. They are all so skinny and they skin is clear and glowing. 
           "He is to good for me" I sigh. 
          
          I get tired of looking at the pictures of beautiful girls who have thrown themselves at my boy friend and I decide to put some music on and stare at the ceiling. Some how listening to Falling in Reverse brings energy back into my veins and I'm wide awake. To awake... My thought cloud my head and a million words begin to blaze through me as I jolt up and take both my heads and place them at both sides of my head. I pull some head out to bring me back to reality. To ease the internal pain.