TragicLauren098

Tempted to leave this account and make a new one. I keep making promises to write for different books, but then never have the energy or motivation to do any of it. And when I do start to write something, my psychosis and other issues screw everything up, and I can’t even get remotely close to completing something.
          
          I want to update and write the requests you all give me, I do, especially when I’m the one asking for them. But I just can’t bring myself to do them, and I’m starting to wonder if it’s because I feel like I’m somehow being held back by this account.
          
          There are so many books and short stories I want to write/rewrite, but I just can’t. Too much is going on mentally when I try.
          
          I’m not proud of any of the work I’ve done here, and I’m so sorry I keep making promises that I can’t keep. Things have been rough, and I just can’t keep lying to myself and saying I’ll get things done. If you read all of this, I hope you understand.
          
          I don’t know where I’m going from here, but thank you all for making my time with this account enjoyable. I discovered a passion for writing that I never knew I’d have. Hopefully, someday I’ll be able to get to all the requests I’ve put off, but for now, I’m officially leaving this account. I’ll leave all my stories up, but there’s pretty much no chance that I’ll update them.
          
          If I make a new account, and if you’re bothered to see if I write anything good anymore, I’ll let you know where to find my stories.
          
          Thank you for everything.

IMPORTANT!
          Jaiden has released a new video identifying her sexuality. I’ve posted [A/N]s in the three books of the series expressing how it affects the series. I’ll be discontinuing the series now. The book was taking a bad turn anyway, so I wasn’t proud of how it happened. Also, in the first book, there’s a chapter where the reader calls Jaiden selfish for her feelings about her eating disorder and depression, and I just want to say this now as someone who struggles with the same issues—NEVER call ANYONE selfish for having those thoughts or feelings. They can’t control how they feel most of the time and that phrase will only hurt them more.

How nice! Happy late birthday!   : )

I re-read my first book from the Jaiden Animations series, and I just have to apologize to those of you who have read it: there’s a scene where [Y/N] finds out about Jaiden’s eating disorder and depression, and she calls Jaiden “selfish and close-minded” for having those thoughts. At the time I had only recently been diagnosed with depression and an eating disorder, and didn’t know how to properly handle the conversation. Never EVER call someone selfish for thinking they’re not good enough. I never should’ve written [Y/N] that way, and I apologize. I could’ve handled it way better than I did. I’m sorry.

For those asking: the reason I wrote about Jaiden struggling with her eating d!sorder is because I personally deal with an eating disorder myself, and I found comfort in knowing I’m not the only one who deals with it. I wasn’t intending to romanticize it, so if it came across that way, I apologize.

I would just like to apologize right now for any works I’ve created about romanticizing abuse or trauma. Those works are much older than my recent works, and I do not condone romanticizing about them. Please do not vote for those stories/chapters, they do not deserve attention. I’ve realized in my Lara Croft x Female Reader oneshot book, I portrayed abusive relationships in a light that I shouldn’t have, and I deeply regret it. I’m most likely going to unpublish those that represent the wrong sides of things.

Thank you all so much for 900+ followers! We’ve grown so quickly in such a short amount of time! I just wanted to let you all know that I care about you and I appreciate all of your love and support with my work!  :)

Heyy, are you going to update “Forever my darling” book? I mean it’s an awesome story and I hope that you write more chapters :•) 

To those who are curious: I now have 31 published stories (soon to be 30) because I unpublished the stories I wasn’t going to work on or ones I wasn’t proud of at all. I apologize if I unpublished one you enjoyed. :)

I just realized I never properly said thank you for 800+ followers, so...
          
          Thank you!   :D