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I'm fucking losing it! This week is my last week before I enter winter break and my teachers are driving me insane! I have a geometry project and homework to turn in tomorrow with a test!! And my history teacher wants to check everyone's note book to grade it and have an essay on Wednesdays! THEN! I HAVE FINALS ON TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY, THURSDAY, AND FRIDAY!! I'm so tired but every night I stay awake late at night just to do work. I have been having low sleep and sleeping on top of my friends!! My family noticed this and tried to stop me but I just can't stop working!! My grades are so important, I have an F and I'm doing so much to get it up to a C at least!! I just have this week left then it's winter break...

Dude, why fuck am I crying?!
          
          Okay so, I had school today right? Which I have to say before, I won't post anything this week and next week cause it's finals week and tests which are REALLY IMPORTANT!!! So I'll be busy studying and shit. Anyways today was rough, My friend accidentally broke one of my keychains, I almost slept in class cause I haven't been sleeping well, and I still have an F for geometry. So I came back home from school, did homework and I told my sister about it. She looks at me with sadness before hugging me, saying it okay and that I'm doing my best. First of all, she doesn't like hugging so much then me so it kind of surprised me a bit, and second, I literally froze for a moment, I didn't understand why I felt tears building up, soon after, my brother and mom came to hug me too when they saw tears, I didn't notice the tears!?! So now I'm laying in bed, still in tears and I don't know how to stop crying from this?!

Okay..I'm gonna get serious..
          
          Today, me and my siblings left to go to the store, walking, It took us 5 minutes to get them, but my sister and older brother felt something wrong in their gut, I did too but It was little. My sister made us hurry up in the store, I didn't know why. A couple hours passed by, my sister's friend, who have a sister went missing. Apparently, she went out to throw out trash and afterwards, no one heard of her. I'm serious right now, I know all you guys are in different areas but please, I'm begging you to always be on a look out around you, please please please! Have your phone with you! Pepper spray! Taser! Anything to help you or protect you! Right now, this situation is getting taken care of but please, I don't know what she looks like or how old she is but please! Be careful around you! They live close to me and my family, nothing happened to us but I'm hoping she will be okay... Right now, I don't know how my sister's friend is handling this, he must be worrying and crying so much...please again! Trust your instincts when something is wrong, have something to help you or protect you! Keep your phone! And please.. be safe...

I'm gonna lose it.
          
          My brother is playing Christmas music...IT ALL ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNK VERSION FOR HOURS!!! IM GONNA LOSE IT!! AHHHH!!!

Bro it is like 2:47 am for me and I'm still awake but tired. what the fuck-

Can't catch a break...
          
          Today, I have so much homework to catch up because I was gone for 4 days of school! I have a concert today! My teachers are being a bitch to me! I'm gonna actually cry, oh and my family is most likely not gonna be watching me play so ya! But I gotta hold it in, the show must go on right?!

I DID IT! I'M BACK TO THE USA!! now.
          
          To rest for a few days please 

Oh god, I leave today and frankly, I'm crying so much, my stomach is doing flips cause I fear the airplane so much. I hate it!! I'm so scared I'll pop my ears again but, I have to go on the plane, I leave till like around 10 pm, wish me luck!! Cause Im scared and sad...

Tomorrow. I leave Mexico.
          
          I'm actually crying heh. I just got to spend time with my family and the animals, now I have to leave and Frankly. I don't wanna. It actually makes me cry so much. I'm gonna miss them so much.

My sister is mean! She says that eggdog looks stupid >:( Eggdog is cute!!!