The Crackhead

Bruh if even anyone sees this shit am just say random shit so life has been a bit tough recently but still okay some family issues, school is being stressful to the point I might skip again, being obsessed with stupid boys who don’t give a shit about me just uses to past time and not even takes time to get to know me, my confidence and self esteem is getting worse again. To this point I might just changed to online school but I will miss school and miss on all the events I might experience later on. Am hang on for a bit long BUT YA MOSTLY JUSY BEING OBSESSED WITH HIS GUY he really nice, joking a lot, etc but I don’t feel good enough for him sometime he’s like the person who’s alway on his phone and just waits until you talk to him BUT HES KIND… am try to get his number to get to know him better ik but ya :) 
          
          And my friends I FINALLY HAVE FRIENDS WHO TRULY CARES FOR ME. Also if you follow me here and has my discord am sorry I deleted mine since I got a new phone idk my dumbass thought I need a new discord acc but nah will reach out to me if you had me added on my old discord acc

At this point am bored and done with wattpad there’s nothing interesting anymore, 
          
          Bye y’all have a great rest of your life 

Am sorry but dying to in a cute and wholesome relationship LIKE PLS 
          

This dude is so confusing tf, so the guy I liked I like stopped like being that obsessed girl like looking at him all the time because he laughed at a joke someone made of my lazy which made me pissed. But why doesn’t he always look at me like dude… and keep asking my friends who’s my crush tf if am saying then I don’t want to say. 
          
          

Do updates Pookies, at this point this mf is making me go insane:) like in the first weeks of him being the school we talked and you know laughed a bit and had small conversation but not that big or something but then this gurl my friend is friends with started liking him and didn’t tell me but i found out  the day I saw them both walking together. After that day he became  more distanced and just gave me some glances.  I HATE IT like tf mf is over there with girls talking when he can’t even have a single fucking conversation with me? Like tf? Then he does something giving my dumb ass some hope but later nothing. At this point the other girl can have him bcs at this moment he’s basically ignoring me, maybe one the girls who hates me told him I like him or something but idc if he doesn’t like me then he can walk out. The door is wide open sweetie bcs am not going to be begging for him to give me a chance.

I CAME WITH MORE OF MY DELUSIONS THOUGHTS, so on Friday my school had this halloween and of course I went since I wanted to you know really enjoy this year, I was with one of my best friend! We match headbands! She looked so cute! But the dude I like was there too! I saw I the entrance and my heart raced lmao but I saw one of my other friend I said hi and waited for my best friend to come but she was already there fast forward we had A LOT of fun that today I woke up with my voice deep then normal lol but during the dance me and my friend was trying to see some younger kids from the like popping off and I saw him on the other side he was like looking around for someone I just you gave small glances so when I looked away for a sec and looked back HE WAS LOOKING AT ME! AHHHH idk maybe am delusional I always gaslight myself saying he wasn’t look you but at someone else lmao ALSO this one funny time this person that at the dance like looking over the student threw out glow stick and I was fighting for my life’s trying to get out the crowd but also… like shoving and pushing some younger people for glow sticks lol and I accidentally TOUCHED HIS KNEE AHH BRUH AFTER THAT GURL I WALKED OUT THE CROWD ITS SO EMBARRASSING LIKE BRU anyways I didn’t let that stop me from having fun the night went on and I really had a lot of fun over all lol i can’t wait for Monday to see if he even saw me like grabbing his knee DUDE I HOPE HE DOESNT that would to embarrassing. ALSO WHEN I ENTERED LIKE A MINUTE LATER HE WENT UP TO ME AND THE OTHER FRIEND AND LIKE DADDED ME UP but damn his hands were cold!

Kinda miss the old time when I was addicted to wattpad lmao… idk just it was much better back then:)

Am tired asf my skin is coming back with acne, then am getting  eye bags and making my eyes a bit red, then having headache all the time! Like damn calm down it had been just 6 weeks since school started like dam!

SO I UHM LIKE SOMEONE ELSE NOW:) the only thing we do is eye contact and always look away on the same time but other then that just stalk each other  also hes the new kid so ya he doesn’t have much friends I bet mf thinks a freak or shit bcs I always be laughing in the class I have with him

Just found out the guy I liked now over a month or maybe three months has a girlfriend and is a adult uhm… GURL TF IS WRONG WITH ME T-T