Cold Dark Soul

Hai, I liked one of your comments so I decided to follow you!

Would i really be missed once i take the knife to my own wrist?
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Always missing you....
          
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I think i put off reading as much as i can so that i don't run out of things to read or so the story doesn't end.... I love reading so much....
          
          
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That point in life where you're so close to killing yourself and the only thing that keeps you from ending it is thinking of all you need to do to end it and thinking so much about that, that you drain all your energy to the point that you fall asleep and stay asleep for a whole day,
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Not that i ever write in perfect English
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It's something you'll regret the moment it happens and you didn't mean to do it and you don't know why maybe out of habit perhaps you just lost control an addiction who the hell knows you just want to rid of the feeling the burning of the acid in your throat so maybe go to sink and swish the water in your mouth spitting it out with tge hope itll leave or maybe your run to get a water bottle and chug it maybe another anything to get rid of the burning to get rid of the taste but it doesn't leave sometimes the taste does but it doesn't get rid of the feeling you know you did it you know what happened you can't forget it and it's a never-ending cycle what are you to do when you feel trapped and it's something you can't control and the feeling stays for about a week and you end up doing it again so then really the feeling never leaves.
          
          [ Sorry for not using proper writing here, it's a vent so]
          
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Another day I've come to wish away,
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Today is just another day one spent doing nothing of importance, one i will forget in time. It won't matter, but eveyday is like this. They're all the same and one day I'll forget them all, so whats the point of living them anyway?
          
          Maybe I'd be fine if we didn't base life on how we feel,
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Dear feature self,
          
          I don't really think i want you to exist.
          
          Thanks,
                       Present self xx.