Just A Girl 🤡

I just realised it’s the last day of pride and I haven’t said anything about it so I hope everybody had a great month. I really can’t believe it’s been 3 years since I realised I was queer and how far I’ve come. All in all the last three years has been a rollercoaster that I was not expecting but it hasn’t been too too bad. My heart goes out to the all the people who have to hide their gender identity and/or sexuality from their loved ones or who are not accepted and supported by their loved ones as they should be even though everyone should be regardless of gender or sexuality or anything else. I recognise that I have been extremely fortunate and lucky to have the support I currently have thus far. I know many things have been going on the in the last year which has left our community very discouraged but we will do what we have to do and have been doing for years: Fight. We will continue fighting to be seen and heard and accepted and embraced and loved and supported. And we will fight to be as valid as anybody else. And we will fight to have the freedom to be our amazing, fabulous selves. But more importantly we will love, we will cry, we will sing, we will scream, and we’ll dance just to get up to do it all again. I love you and I’m so proud of how far you have come even if are a new or closeted or still in a little denial. Happy Pride to every solider (be they fictional or real) that has lead the way for ordinary gays like me to live a little more comfortably in this world ♥️️‍️‍⚧️

What the hell has been the last year of my life? A comprehensive list in order:
          
          -My mom called the police twice within a week of each in my last 3 weeks of school
          -I didn’t go to my last week of school because I blocked my ears using cotton buds and couldn’t physically sit up for longer than 5 minutes 
          -I left my old school after summer
          -I moved back to Bermuda after 8 years in the UK to live with my nann and one of her sisters
          -I started online international schooling in October and will finish school doing this if all goes accordingly 
          -I got Swimmer’s ear because apparently my ears just hate me
          -I got my first ukulele after hating taking lessons in Primary school and have since become somewhat good at it
          -I’ve learned more about my gender identity and sexuality after thinking I was done when I finally accepted being a lesbian 
          -I got back in touch with a Primary school friend who I ghosted over for 2 years
          -One of my great Uncles died (rip️)
          -I saw a childhood best friend for the first time in 4 years
          -I came out to my dad after learning that one of my older half brothers is gay (he didn’t disown, surprisingly he was actually cool about it)
          -Closer to coming out to my nann than ever before (then everybody in my family can find out for all I care)
          
          I hope this kind of explains my absence but I will be back to England in 2 months (don’t jinx it) so I hope to find more time and creative focus to ge back to updating my multi chapter fics as well as two one shots I’ve been writing for a year (I really love them both but specifically one in particular so I hope you guys like them when I do eventually post them)

So sorry for my absence lately. I’ve moved back to Bermuda over the summer and forgot my usb which has my story outline for With much love and Best friends forever on it so until I go back to England in December I won’t be able to update on those but I have 2 one shots in the works so hopefully I will get one or both out before December

I'm still in shock that you're gone. I didn't know your talent and shine until after your passing but you got me through my darkest time. A time where I didn't accept myself or deem myself valid or want to live, you made me smile, laugh and embrace my awesomeness even if it was just in the comfort of my room. You inspired and continue to inspire so many people in life and death. You lit up rooms with your presence and demanded attention with your confidence and grace. You blessed this world with a mini you who will grow up to hear stories of your determination. You pushed for representation in a time when there was very little and opened doors for our future. You encompassed dozens of peoples feelings with your acting and the soul in your voice. I truly don't know where I would be without you and for that I am eternally grateful.
          Fly High Songbird  Rip  The Great Legend Naya Rivera 

This pride month is dedicated to all the shows and people who have inspired me to be myself and embrace my awesomeness: Naya Rivera, Heather Morris, Chris Colfer, Darren Criss, Glee, Spop, Noelle Stevensons, TOH, Adventure time, The legend of Korra, Steven Universe, Rebecca Sugar, Rwby, One day at a time, Emily Dickinson and Sappho ️‍ I’m here, I’m queer and I’m a little less afraid because of these icons

Oh my goodness! Did I just post chapter three of With much love finally?

I’m currently obsessed with the perks of being a wallflower after watching it first when I was 7 and not really understanding it to watching and reading it now and understanding it a little too well

It’s Pride month bitches!!️‍Let’s go fellow lesbians let’s go

I know I said last month that I would post 2 oneshots and update both BFF and With much love but instead I wrote a Taylor Swift song oneshot about Brittana today in 2 hours instead of revising for my end of year tests that are next week

For the past week I've just been walking around my house saying "Oh, my back" which isn't something I imagined for myself until I was at least 40 to 50 but I need to stop falling asleep on my laptop and using it on my bed since they aren't doing wonders for my back or posture.